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thursday ...

rest at home and slack lo... then play game... lol...

Friday....

nv go camp cos tired... actually wanan take mc but end up nv take... lol... lazy to go take... then play game.... do project study and read my books... keke... jie jie.. my exams results are out.. forensic i got A... java i got A too... ethical hacking i got B... keke.. left these 3 modules and finish le... wahhaha... then nx yr degree... ^.^ hmm... sms with her and she's quite kind of happi for my results... i wish she can do it like me too.. keke... ^.^ maybe later going out for a while.... see how lo... update later...

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Hey jie sry to skip blogging... lol.. was very tired and lazy....

Tuesday and Wednesday...

Go camp and go home early noon and slp... till evening... very tired.... these few days she's sick... >.< heartpain... lol.... but i hope she's getting better and the weather is getting cooler too... too hot le la... -.- was talking in camp and my friend told me about his marriage life etc.... nowadays the youngsters in sg... all fucktub.... pple got wife also wan tackle etc... fucktub man.... too many stories to say.... and i got some hints and tips when getting married ... lol.... lazy to say cos too many too..... hmmm... life in reservits suxs cos boring dunno wat to do... but nt bad la... i tell my schedule u also say fun lol..... morning 8.45-9 report.. show face... nth to do go home liao... LMAO... everyday liek this...

Thursday....

go camp and slack... do nth ... slp till 1.... then wake up eat and come home le lo... =p update later jie...

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Sry jie,... tired ar...

Saturday....

I forgot where i went and wat i did lol... sorry jie....
but i know i was tired...

Sunday...

Woke up at 9+ and met aung and diniesh at cck library to do our project , assigments.. went home around 2+ .... went to find a friend around 4+... then stayed and helped up and helped to clean crystals till around 8+... i cut my little fingers ... around 7 little deep cuts... so pain pain >.< went home and fell asleep till 2+ and went to bath cos too hot and slp again lo....

Monday...

today go camp and slack... went for orientation etc... went home and met velon and wee kiat... then went railway mall to eat ... and was introduced to her investments and plans... etc... juz reac home around 12...

i think i am missing her so so so much... omg... she's sick today >.<>.< miss u lots and slp tite... sweet dreams too ^.^
Alright jie.... i gonna facebook a while and go slp le... 2molo muz book in again zzzz... nite nite in advance :P

jiejie sry for nt potsting in these 2 days..... tired and busy.......

Thursday...

Went for an appointment and yeah chatted with the client and he intending to get 800 pieces of software... then i went to tanjong pagar to teach the 2nd time..... stress... lesson today was quite good and relaxing... ^.^... after that met a friend and 2 more of his friends for pool then we went batok to find a friend but he's nt around... so we went to find another friend at tech whye but he's also not around wtf.... then we went to eat at geylang... nice ba ku teh and herbal chicken then we went to his 2 friend's place where they are working there... we drank till aorund 1 and went home... we drank a jug of beer and my fav cologne blue keke... then we went home and my friend was a merlin juz now LOL..... so so funni the scene... really is ROFL LMAO ....

Friday...

yesterday was a sleepy day for me... i woke up around 2+ ... then went to a friend's sch to eat but he ordered wrongly so i dun wanna eat and end up i ordered another dish... and i finished them all... then i went to batok... today i have learnt so so so so many things... heehee... i will always remember them well and cherish it... i learnt so many lessons and hints from GOD ... then we went home around 9 and we went for 3 games of snooker and go home lo.... cos tired... keke.....so i did all my stuff and slp around 5....

jzu woek up at 12+ and was woken up by many sms and miss calls... ><>.<

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morning jie... lol.... woke up around 11+.... then play facebook games... LOL... i login the blog and see... LOL... SHE removed all may's post and removed pics settings etc.... LMAO... dare to read dun dare to reply or comment... PUI.... GO FUCK SPIDER PLS...... anyway i am feeling ok... dun worry about me jie.... yeah... yr status means about me... HAHA... but dun worry la... i got enough backup and power and etc to play the game... i am well prepared for this .... ^.^ not to worry jie... maybe i will juz be prepared and stop ...^.^ anyway jie... i going out soon cya ...=p miss u and miss her so much... kekekeke

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jie... hihi.... today was quite a boring day lol.... i woke up and chatted on facebook and then went to meet a long long long lost friend... we had meal 2gether and chatted... LOl... it's quite fun actually to meet up and chat... haha... but in my heart i told myself.... i will miss all these things soon.... i will be leaving sg..... then i went to hillview... today's session was okok... then got home and my buddie called me his 2 lappys are spoilt... and arrr.... i got 4 lappys to do... 2 my buddie's 2 my customer... i finished all of them around 1.45.... and ya.. i am going to bath and slp... 2molo long day ...-.-'''''

i then was quite pissed and wanted to coment in HER facebook wall.... but something told me not to.... so i posted in personal blog....this is how it goes...

"Hey... i decided to type her cos it's better that it's between both of us... i wanted to wall on yr facebook but i think u should deserve some respect too.... so i did not and typed here... if i did... it will make u feel bad... trust me...So stop hiding and avoiding.... It's time to face the fact and talk things out... i dun wanan use a way that will make everything goes bad or make u look bad.... i think i am nt happi for it that's why i wanan talk things out... but it's always better this way in order to prevent me from doing things in future....
I know so so so many things...u know i know almost 95% of all things that had happened since march but i tend to keep quiet..... i juz wanan see how u react and solve this..... like my facebook status said.... i got lots of evidence, pics, logs,statements etc... nevermind where i got them from but they juz come to me eventually... u will be suprised and shocked that i can to an extend post them all in facebook or tag u with rude and bad remarks against u...i do nt wanna do things till like this... i can but i choose nt too.... it will be a big war after this and i will make sure this chess starts and no one will get anything good out of it....even i have to suffer or die or watever i also dun care.... i will do things my way for the 1st and last time....juz to let u know... u really did make me damn pissed off when all these happens and it's already overshot my limit x100000000 times.... i had so many ways of doing things but luckily GOD and good friends saved me by talking to me....
so i wish u all the best.... if u think it's a good time to meet up, sit down and have a good chat and take couple of your hours... it will juz be great.....so feel free to juz sms or email me when u can... cos i will nt be in singapore for long..... "

it was already to my limit... LOl... i am nt happi ya.... but if i dun say it out i nt happi seriously and i know i wll seek revenge.... -.-" so i am doing it to maybe let me understand... like my friend said... i am someone who onli wants explanations and answers ..... quite true perhaps... anyway ... i am gonna bath and slp le jie... nt wanting to talk much... lol... sorry =x nitenite jie... ^.^

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hey jie... juz free to update ..... actually juz now evening when i got home i fell asleep till 6.15 then i went to sch after a bath....i met aung and diniesh at mac again... zzz then we went to class....class ended at 10.15 today ... zzzzzzzzzzzz we then went home and i did my stuff... my work.... my sch work... zzzz then leh...kagero called and we chatted again...^.^

yeah i got chat with an old old friend... 15 yrs ago... she's angie's fren... we chatted and ya she remember who am i... lol.... like is so bad for us this yr... for those born in the year of dog... lol.... but nvm ba.... i think GOD have plans for all of us.... ^.^ i suddenlt though of something... i stated that in facebook... "You need sufficient n relevant evidence to bring someone to trial.(what i learn in forensic class). I have lots of evidence of time,pics,logs,statments ,etc... but can i bring them to trial? Is justice always fair? Will time play a part too? Let's See........ ^.^" i find it true.... when can i prosecute a person ... when can i bring a person to trail even if i have evidence?? lol... nvm me... that's kind of random... hmmm...... jie... i am tired le... i think i shall pray before i go to bed and 2molo wake up do my sch work and exercise.... i am going to slp le jie... nitenite and sweet dreams to u and her... keke... ^.^

1st day teaching....

hey jie... sorry nv update yesterday.... haha... yesterday was tiring... >.< slp around 4+.... need to prepare my notes etc for class 2molo... haha....
Yesterday went to friend's place and talk talk... heng ar .... wanna buy 4d heng i nv buy if nt tio EAT.... but hor her bday open ... sian nv buy haha.... but nvm.... then fetched a friend to causeway pt and talked throughout the journey.... oooooo beginning to gain more knowlegde and wisdom....keke.... then fetch 2 more friends on the way.... arrrr.... they eat dinner le... i haven eat....=( ke lian hor me..... then we went for number ball... keke.... after playing we went to have my DINNEr and their supper... and went home.... reach home around 1.... then after my bath.... kagero called again... >< .... but this time i use house phone to call LOL.... cheaper mah.... and my dad juz got a cordless phone ..so we chatted till 4..... and i was so tired and sleepy and went to bed after our conversation....

Today woke up at 12.... prepared my things etc... and off i went to tanjong pagar... the venue changed to there instead of shenton way.... before class i was very very very very stress.... omgomg..... then i sms her..... keke... i think i will do well ba.... from her encouragement i think i can do it... =p

my class had a total number of 17 students.... uncles and aunties ranging from 40-60.... i introduced myself as Sam.... but all of them still call me LAO SHI....i was thinking i think i might be younger then some of yr sons or daughters.... so dun call me lao shi la... LOL..... and keep asking me questions like how old am i la... am i married ... how long am i in IT line la... etc.... they were quite impressed when i answered them... -.-" i was like... wtf... then i decided to make the class more unity and lively and told them before we start we will have an introduction??? i dunno correct or wrong but they seem to be laughing and joking around when that happen.... hehe.... happi ar me....lol... then break was around 3+.... and i wanted to have a smoke and drink and too bad for me.... some of them keep asking me questions and end up i nv go...... and luckily before class started .... a auntie bought me a bottle of mineral water... class resumed and i seem to have the love of teaching.... i was very happi that by the end of the class... all of them know what are what and what are the purpose of them.... i am very very satisfied and happi... keke... class ended around 4+ and i need to submit their attendance etc.... after that i went home and it's already 5+ when i got home.... i logged into facebook and listen to music and slack a while.... ooo jiejie... i am going to sch later .... shall update later ok??

afternoon

hi jie... yesterday forget to update sorry... was very tired.... yesterday i went to meet a friend to see his laptop.... spoil o.... then we went to help a group of friends to transport things.... then we went for snooker session... after that we went to eat a home cooked food by another friend and not bad... quite LOL...after all we left at 12... i got home did my stuff and etc..... so so tired and fell asleep around 4+..... nicole called me at 10+ but i was busy so she said she will call me when she got back... if she did nt call means she's slping and tired and will talk to me other days.... she wanna know how r things going for me... and something like updating her... >.<
kagero called me and we chatted for almost close to 2 hrs again... omg my hp is gonna BOOM but it;s worth it .... keke.... i think we are getting closer and better ....let's see what it is in future ba.... keke....i was pissed off by HER las nite... due to certain reasons...but nvm... forget it... COS SHE SUXS.... KNN... SURE FUCKING CURSE THAT THEY GET RETRIBUTION GAO GAO... LOL..... i tend to worry for her sometimes but.... it's like 80% of me is forgettign her... still got 20%... and i am trying very very hard to get rid of the 20%.... Jiayou to me hor jie... KEKE.... i am thinking is GOD arranging all these??? Is she too good for me or am i too good for her so things turn out liek this??? LOL... DUN CARE LA......

jie.... my mind still nt clear sia...i tend to know who and wat i wan but hor... i am greedy.... zzzzzzzzzzzzz sigh sigh sigh... jiayou to me... >.<
i juz woke up at 4+.... so song to slp till so long... LOL.... that's great... going out later to chill and shall update 2nite... cya jie... ^.^

Morning !!!!!

Rise and shine jie.... keke.... i woke up due to rain... LOL... cos i very very cold.... and my blanket is on the other side of the bed... zzzz....then i woke up... i am hunrgy and tired... -.-"mom then called ask me to close the windows and i said i close liao.... then i remembered mom told me... nx week onwards she will hardly come back...she ask me to help with the housework.... orh... i am waiting for them to be back before i can leave... a friend of mine will be buying a new laptop maybe... o.0... hmmm..... then was doing quiz while waiting on facebook.... lol... some are quite true some and fake... -.-" funni ar... LOL... ok jie... i will update again 2nite... cya.... ^.^ hope u enjoy yr weekends.....^.^

Updating again...

Hey jie... today was a good day for me.... i slp till 3+ then i wake up lol... super shiok... i remember i dream of myself on the bed... no strength to get up... i woke up a while and really no strength..... then i went back to slp..... i did my stuff and exercise ... then i went to buy something... i saw a friend and she told me about her friend's problem... so much worst then me... may GOD bless her... >.<.... hope everything goes well for her frend too..... i then went to sch..... tomolo is aung's birthday.... so i have planned to get my classmates to get a cake for him....

We had cake ,curry puffs and drinks before lesson 2gether with our lecturer... pictuires are in facebook....after class i went home...i watched movies and did some of my sch work.... then i went to bath at 3.30... now is around 3.45....

i remembered that i listen to her and stop buying 4d and ya... heng i nv buy ... cos wed if i buy i will be angry again... LOL... miss by 1 digit again... Heng ar....i also remembered KYRIE called me... jie u remember her right??? LOl... she jio me play online game 2gether and ask me to meet her before she leaves singapore... she's going to taiwan to work and ya.... she's a full time model now....not like las time part time... LOl... maybe i will meet her maybe not... -.-" i still tend to remember those things she did before... zzzz...

around 2+.... Kagero called me.... Jie u know her right??? i think u onli seen her once....i think was around 2006???? LOL... she's doing fine in japan now... we chatted for almost 2 hrs on the phone and omg... my bill will pile up again LOL... but nvm it's worth o....... she's doing fine now... a part time teacher from what i heard from her... and she's also having her own business (clothes).... that's good to hear from her... and she said it will be good if u join me on october to visit her too??? will u be able to make it???she wans me to accompany her on her birthday this oct... ^.^ so happen it falls on "OUR" anniversary... LOL... HAHA....and what is it is that she is still not attached... LOL.... =x i send her tons of my pics thorugh email and she said i look younger and neater... LOL.... =x... she forced me to send her and she dun wanan send me....... kanna trick... but i have a feeling that she's prettier and prettier.... LOL... ya.... her english is improving tremendously.... now i think she can speak like maybe malaysian standard.... very nt bad hor... LOL... she also told me that she will be calling me more often... -.-" i asked her why and she said she juz wanan talk to me more... to share with me her weekly life... and i think my bill will pile up more and i muz quickly change PLAN... LOL....she said some things that made me touched too..... omg... but i cannot say out... cos is between us... KEKE.....i tend to somehow think of her while bathing and miss her.... OMG... i am missing 2 pple.... i know the "Her" is still in my mind... omg.... jie.... i am greedy??? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz haiz.... dun think so much better la hor.... who knows maybe she's my wife... and that SHE is very .....(critical) dunno who... LOL...

jie i really wish now is sep or oct.... so i know i will be going to aus and japan soon and my studies will be over and i will wait for my degree to start... i really need a BREAK..... i am still nt thinking of how i should study my degree... zzzz omg omg... but nvm... 1 step at a time... zzzzzzzzz nx mth reservist somemore... 2 weeks... FUCK..... omg omg omg..... what should i do... zzzz hai... jie i lazy to think and tired le... i go slp... now 4am... 2molo still muz wake up at 10.45... nitenite jie... missing pple(S) now lol.... nite nite...

Blur blur me.... >.<

Hey jie... today was a very tiring day for me........ i woke up around 7.45... bath... changed ... styled my hair(took me around 5 mins ) ... cannot get what i wan LOL... and went to shenton way to meet a client... he's mr seah's friend... a good customer of mine(Mr seah)... we were supossed to talk about our norton deal.. he's gonna purchase 500 orginal license copies from me...the appointment was 9am.. but we finished around 1.... when i met him.. we did not talk about NORTON... he talked about me, himself and my old problem.... he told me... you are a fine,talented young man who will be very much successful...you are smart and pick things fast.... dun becos of a girl and ruin yr life and career... >.< i was quite happi when he said that but a bit down ... lol... AM I STILL NOT CLEAR???? omg.... i tend to think of what happened recently.... i was thinking if i helped... i will be helping her indirectly maybe??? should i ??? if i help it will maybe save yr repuitation?? if i help will she take things for granted???? i still do not know the answer now if i should help or not help... LOL... let's see how ba.....

then i headed to sim lim square to get many stuff etc... a friend's laptop wanna do then end up he dun wan do... KNN... waste my trip and time and parking fee and petrol there.... then i got a keyboard which is 180$ orginal cos comes with 1 year warranty... after that... i went to eat sim lim square duck rice.... ya... finally eat le... yummy yummy...... then i went to batok to change the keyboard... and wtf.. i told her 180 she dun wan... KNN.. before that i told her close to 200 she said ok... now knn ... then i called my friend he said... most 150... she said 150 also ex.... KNN CB... dulan... then she said 120... so i lan lan pay 30 for her... THIS LESSON TELLS ME... NOT TO TREAT PPLE TOO GOOD AGAIN... KNN... AND DUN TRUST CHINA GIRLS..... AND I WILL FUCKING HATE MORE CHINA GIRLS.... ONLI SOME LA.... i have some china friends... ^.^ i sat around and went back for a while to change cos i am very very hot... then i went to sch...for these laptops really pissed me off... KNN DULAN SIA....

we were late for lessons cos i enquired everything about my degree.... i have so many question marks in my brains.... dunno if i should go overseas or stay in sg.... onli 1 reason that i wil stay is for her.... mostly.... not sure if other reasons will affect my decision in staying.... but mostly i think should be going to UK instead of aus if i really go overseas.... depends.... aus's modules are harder and i need to take 8 modules while UK de, 7 modules and easier also.... out of 7 i think i know 4.... LOL... dunno how sia jie... i am ??? .... lol... so so so dunno how... zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i fetched aung to batok to collect his company van and i went home.... i watched a movie.... the jackie chan de with my idol(Daniel Wu).... oooo.... jackie said something really meaningful....
"Waiting is so much pain and torture. Great, now i know the answer!!" i still dunno the answer although it's quite clear... BUT i dun like things that are not spoken by both parties face to face . it is like incomplete...i went to bath around 3am... now is 3.30.... during my bath.... i keep thinking how??? what ???? when??? should i???? should i not??? muz i???? will i???? omg.... today is like a very ??? day for me....maybe i am too too tired and it made me cannot think well... jie ar jie... what should i do?? how i wish u are beside me now.... so i can ask u and u can straight answer or advice me.... or she is there to speak to me.... i dunno.... i have the feeling that maybe i should stop it.... but.... i love her... omg... what should i do???? depends on GOD again or GOD is letting me decide myself... i have a though that maybe i should juz quietly leave without letting anyone know.... that might be the best... maybe i will do it... but i will still call u jie ... ^.^ no matter what u are still my best jie i ever known..... u were always there(mostly) for me when i was down, or happi etc...anyway... i will slowly think of all of them ba... shall smoke then pray and go to slp... 2molo is the time where i can finally start to exercise... ^.^ keke.... nitenite jiejie...miss you and her lots lots... but miss her more... whahahah.... nitenite... ^.^

Forgot to update =x

My Idol with My Idol actress.... I cut this hairstyle to be like his... LMAO... =x











In the life to see... if it's nice or ugly LOL.....























Immediately after coming out... i took this shot.... >.< cos it's styled by uncle botak....

















before hairstyle juz before i went to cut hair today....

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hi jie... hmm.... today after the contractors spoiled my mood... i went to meet a friend and get a laptop from her friend to bring back to repair...then we went to cut hair at international plaza.... after that we went to eat at far east plaza.... LOL..jie my old fav place ar...after that we went to find a friend who's working in town... she said work there stress ar... LOL... good luck to her... and another frend working there today off... lol..they work longer le nx time go find them get discount >.< .... then we went to pray cos i need to go back... my mind and heart keeps telling me to go back... then i prayed and GOD told me the same answer again.... it's so so so fated.. jie some things i cannot say here.... u free then call me i tell u... lol...

after that we headed to yishun for number ball... o.0.... today i got 2 new tudi... they are improving in some ways but due to mood... they failed again... LOL..... i was quite tired at that time and we ended around 10... then i fetched them back and brought another laptop back to repair... reached home around 10.50...

Straight away = see my hair... LOL... and mom said nice... cos SHORT wat... zzz then do the lappy which i suspected either wiring or lcd problem... then solved and did 1 more... now i juz finished repairing the other which was due to harddisk faulty.... after this i gonna slp... very tired... 2molo need wake up at 7+.... go for an important deal... keke.... muz jiayou right me??? hmm..... still did nt talk to her much but.... walk 1 step and see ba..... hopefully GOD knows what i wan... >.< maybe time nt correct yet... see how ba... okok jie... now 2.10... i gonna slp liao update 2molo... ^.^

FUCK THE CONTRACTORS!!!!!

Jie ar... I AM PISSED OF... FUCKING CONTRACTORS KNOCK THE FUCKING WALL FROM 8am TILL NOW... 11am... HAVEN FINISH KNOCKING.... damn dulan.... dunno need to knock wat fuck knock so long... i shouted and there was silence for 15 mins and the knocking continues.... WTF..... then i dulan woke up at 10+ and blasted my music.... LOL.... but the knocking continues... but softer le.... LOL.... REALLY PISS ME OFF AND SPOIL MY DAY THE FUCKING CONTRACTORS..... gonna go out for lunch le.... update later jie.... ^.^

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Hi jie.... glad u appeared in facebook lol.... so long nv see u on liao... as in 2gether online with me lol.... today was a rainy day in singapore... finally..... for the past few days, weather here SUXS.... so so so damn hot and i survived without aircon... haha.....

Went for lunch at railway mall.... nt bad the mee nx time u come i bring u go eat.. i think it's 24hrs.. ^.^.... then go play number ball with a friend... he's learning LOl... so play lo... then saw his friend and they joined us.... and overall i win 20 bucks.... LOL.... good ar.... lmao... old but my skills still there LOL... nt like las time hor.. =x then went batok and talk talk .... relax.... then go a BIG carpark and eat.... nt so bad the food but not my type... cos i dun eat fish.... zzzzzzzzzzzz then i went rcia.... omg... my group got 1 MP... i think either bukit timah or bukit panjang MP... omfg..... i mzu find his pic and see... LOl...or nx time then i get to know him better and i spoke to 1 auntie who is 60 yrs old and when i look at her she's onli like 40... OMG... realy sia.... i think everyone guess her age also 100% wrong 1..... >.<>.< ....

after that.... came home and do my stuff lo... then i viwawa .... LOL.... u know when u online facebook.... i am, viwawa, smoking, replying yr facebook comment, msn with 3 pple, listening to music, on the phone and planning 2molo's activity... -.- so many multi task... LOl...suddenly i think i improve on that....

hmm.... i notice i also tend to talk to pple and know more and encourage friends... i can give them solutions or advices or answers... but why is it always like this when it comes to me.... i am lost????? lol.. zzzzzzzzzz life is so weird... was talking to a friend and she told me another friend of ours finally got a job... i am so happi to hear that.... 2molo i think after going to cut hair i am going to hop by and see... =x..... i am very happi that GOD had answer my prayers.... u know now jie, before i slp when i pray.... i need to mention so many pple's names... to pray for them.... i hope GOD will really help and guide them.... =) at least i am happi that my friend finally got a job... so so so happi for her.... ^.^ hopefully i can guide her too... omg... it's 2.45 and suddenly it's raining now... GOD.... thank you for today, thank you for everything... thank you ^.^ ok... it's getting late and i am going to zzzz le... update again 2molo jie... 2molo i go take pic after haircut... whahah :P nitenite... miss u too jie... miss her too... sweetdreams to both of u... ^.^

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hey jie.... Today life is so fun..... Quite ok la... juz out from a cool bath..... ^.^

Morning went sim lim... then reached home around 2... then went home and slack slack.... then went opposite to eat LAKSA... lol.. nt nice liao... zzzz... then went to sch..... sch today was fun.... learned many new things in class and some applies to my life too.... ^.^... my teacher said... u can USE MY NETWORK WAT.... WOO... finally he said that lol.... then fetched aung home and diniesh and me went to yew tee to ta bao... and back we go...... finished eating fish porridge AGAIN... zzzzzzzzzz then i did my stuff... watched movies and now finally i am reporting to u jie... -.-

Hmm... someone is acting MIA.... LOL... APPEAR OFFLINE ETC.... WAtever i dun give a damn.... to me now... i need to achieve my goal... what i wanna do.... wat i need..... who i want.... who i love.... who will remain in my life and who to leave..... etc.... keke.... i know all liao jie... ^.^
Clever me right.... haha... Ya... the post i posted on facebook is a girl who called me and pissed me off.... she's saying about her... so i very very mad and i said NO MATTER WHAT U DO etc... u pretty or watever also cannot be compared to her.... she is still the best to me... ^.^ fucking angry sia.... although she's very pretty.... clever... too bad..... haha...... Not my cup of tea... ^.^.......

Alright jie... going to slp le.... 2molo going to cut hair.... whahhaha... gonna cut my idol's hairstyle .... lol... =x post 2molo the pics =p

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Hey jie... today was a tiring day for me... haha.. woke up at 8am... went 2 customer's hse and and earn 280 today ... LOL ... a friend called me and ya.. we went down to return another friend something ... then we went to bukit timah for number ball... o.0
Then i saw a FAT ,UGLY AND SHORT GUY... look at me.. i said u familiar ... he said... u jade bf right?? i said LOL... he asked where is jade... i told him dunno... and i dunno her... she where nt my problem... LOL... NOT MY PROBLEM.... LOL... nt i so bad hor jie but she the one who started it all... so let's continue to play the game... ^^

after that i we went to eat and fetch my friends back and went home for MJMJ... woo... won 70+... LMAo... then facebook and do my stuff... i juz came out after a cool bath... so so so shiok... cos weather in sg now is so freaking HOT....... and i missed my 1st PRIZE FOR 4D TODAY!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRrr....... around 50k+ zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz sad sad sad ar... then i sms her... she said if she's me she will stop buying... think i listen to her and stop... =p guai guai hor... lo....she ask me stop the CHESS game i also stop... keke... power of love??? LOL....

ya jie....tell peipei sry... nt i dun wan her to cook for me to eat... but onli eat few pple's cooking from now onwards... LOL.... i scare she get the wrong idea so i said cannot... LOL... but if as normal good good friends yes... i will eat... =p

hmmmm... wondering wanan cut short hair or keep long like las time??? jie u help me think and comment leh... lol.... dunno wanan keep or nt zzzzzz... okok... maybe 2molo going sim lim... get some stuff for customer... ^.^..... i a while more then go slp le... tired ar jie... nitenite... cya..... Nitenite ???? cya ???? miss u too.... see ya u dreamland again =p

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ya jie.. forget to tell u ... i finally had a dream of her ... keke... i dreamt that we were overseas... dunno where... and onli the 2 of us... we were playing skiing and snow... throwing at each other and building snowmans with not many pple around us.....keke... we built a snowman and snowlady like holding hands... and while skiing... she keeps falling and i keep helping her up and teaching her patiently .... wahahhaha... like really couples??? or married le??? haha..... i know how to ski a bit cos got play b4 mah... then we go back to back and we cooked 2gether and eat 2gether beside the fireplace listening to sentimental songs.... ^.^so sweet and romantic right.... LOl... hopefully it comes true... GOD... pls make this come true... Please........ T.T...

the other dreams before all i dun wan le... even if u ask me to forgive that IDIOT 100% i will cos of her.... i really think now my mind is really clear and i really know who i love now...GOD... is this the big big circle which lasted for 12 yrs and now coming back to me? are u hinting me to cherish it and go for it??? are u hinting that i should ask her and date her cos i missed the chance 12 yrs ago???? >.< pls support and guide me and encourage me GOD... Pls let me success ... let me success in this and in my work and to all my close friends too and family members... ^.^ Thank You GOD....

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Hi Jie.... Juz finished eating 2 packets of maggie mee with 2 eggs, some hotdogs, meatballs and some meat... It really spoils my appetite after such a tiring and long day for me... =(

Today was i think the happiest day of my life... i sms her all the way and she replied me with care and concern and maybe some Love or hint??? keke.... silly boi right yr bro, jie? wakakaka...

Ok... morning i went to lim chu kang to pray to Joanne... i talked to her for almost an hour there... i dun think so long but when i saw my watch ... OMG... it's 9.45...... so it's 1 hr +... sigh... i talked so so so so much things to her... i told her from start to ending and what is happening now.. what i am thinking now etc... and i felt so relieved... then i went home and slp... around 12 i woke up... went to pass something to a friend then go bowling.... o.0.... wa jie ar... my bowling improving so so so much... wakakaka.... now normal normal play 130+ whaha... can jio my bro play liao... haha... after that i wanted to go temple but ... fated... close >.< sigh... GOD dun blame me pls... i will go and pray de... trust me... ^.^...

after that we went to tech whye to eat MALAY chicken rice...not so nice le... 8 yrs back nicer.... haha..... after that we went to somewhere special... and after all i juz reach home at 12.... then i cook mee eat lo... so so so so so super tired and sleepy and dunno wat to say... and SUPER MISS HER... haha... i keep reading the old sms and smiling to myself... keke.... new day tomorrow... NEW LIFE FOR ME AGAIN FROM TODAY ONWARDS.... WAKAKAKKA...

Hopefully.. i can get rid of all her suayness or block them all for her.... and i can make her happi everyday... and i love her more everyday... to love someone is something wonderful and good.... hopefully she also knows that and shower me with love perhaps??? haha... nt wanting to put too much hope... LET GOD DECIDE FOR US BA.... hopefully it's like what a few friends said... it is like a big circle and eventually it comes back to u.... hopefully that big circle which took 12 yrs come back to me eventually cos i missed the chance 12 yrs ago... >.< GOD muz give me lots and lots of strength and courage pls... xie xie all of u GODs above ... ^.^ i update again later :P

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Afternoon jie... sorry nv update yesterday lol..... yesterday noon i woke up around 2+... then i went to play some snooker and went to pay money and went home... i rode yesterday and was caught in the rain when i got home... zzzzzzzzz we smsed each other and ya... haha... we sms from 2+ till 6+.... then i left for sch as my friend gonna fetch me to sch.... we went to sch and finished lessons around 10... we talked cock and i my classmate fetched me back...

i got home and talked to a friend... she was trying to ask my problem... i told her lo.. but not all... she keep scolding and brainwashing me zzzzz..... we talked till 2+.... almost 4 hrs i guess... i was quite touched that she actually talked and encouraged me.... she say wan intro me her friends LOL... but i say see how ba... then hor... i did my stuff and went to bed... i was was was so tired....

Jie ar... i juz woke up... it's 2.45 now.. HAHA... song hor... but i am still so tired... and i suddenly remember that i did not blog and afraid u will be waiting to see what i type and what i am doing everyday.... haha... dun worry jie...

These 2 days no dream... zzzz dunno y.... is my mind clear now???? haha.... i do nt know... zzzzzzz
i think i need to start my assigments and projects... o.0..... i am gonna change my harddisk maybe 2molo or 2nite... i gonna format my com... haha... change everything... o.0..... see how cos hor... i very very lazy to do it also... hmmm.... jie ar jie... other day i post 1 video in facebook.. u go see ok? so sweet the mtv but i hope like me sia... ending not very good but i dun mind ... haha...ok jie.. i update 2nite ... i have headache now... T.T.... like gonna sick again wtf... zzzzzzzzzzz cya later jie....

nite jie...

nitenite jie..... today was quite ok ... went to sim lim and do things.. then go fetch a friend li jie then she accompanied me go temple to pray... to thank GOD... ^.^ after that we went to pick weekiat up... and we went to meet yilin.... then go eat at woodlands .... we ate thai food... lol.. nt bad wor... and ya......we had our normal wednesday number ball game... lol... today no win no lose... lol... and li jie is super on form sia... maybe she accompany me go temple... lol... she top winner today....she's so scary today... lol..... jiejie.. nx time u come sg... i intro them to u... they are nice and good pple, (my Supporters) when i was down... i have quite a number of friends to intro to u but... not all... onli some.... ^.^ .....but onli thing they dunno what they want in life now... so maybe i try to guide them if i can?? hahaha..... like so pro sia me... but i think i can share with them about my experiences ba... and i onli tell pple whom are closer and i think are really good frends to me.... although i know quite a number of new frends recently... i still know who are good and bad o...... i wished for my good friends to do well in life now... although we have huge age gap... i find it's better to enlightened them now... maybe it's fate and that's what GOD is arranging??? i duno but i feel it is..... ^.^

reached home around 12+.... then i was surfing the net and oooo... i suddenly remembered so many old songs... and i downloaded them all lol...............hmmm..... i still keep thinking .... do i love anyone now?? am i loving someone now???? i think it is a yes... when i am feeling happi... i wished she's beside me to share the joy 2gether... haha... that's love???? my classmate aung told me if u are happi , u think of a girl u like= u love her....hopefully it's true...i do not wish for so much to happen now... if it's all fated by GOD... then i will go for it... although i know that loving someone so much... u need to fight for it.... i fought for it.... but i got nth out of it... so i will not tend to fight so much liao..... it's the 1st time i lost in a battle -.- .... but...... i dun care much either.... losing that battle let me gained so so so much things and experiences..... i learned so much things too... when we gain something we will lose something and vice versa.....maybe i am getting mature??? or older???? sometimes i find i am naggy zzzzzz i feel like an old man lol........ =x jialat ... i wonder what will happend when i turn 35... zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I told pple i will nt love anyone again but.... Why suddenly i find i am loving someone???? is GOD testing me?? is something tempting me??? or is it NOW REALLY THE TRUE LOVE I LOVE???? it's like a big circle... and it comes back to u???? i dunno sia... zzzz these type of things are beyond my knowlegde ..... onli GOD knows.... let's see what am i gonna dream of today... haha... alright... i am going to bed now.... and i will add few more pple in my prayers b4 i slp... ^.^.... i heard a friend said... pple who pray for pple is very strong... say i am superstitious or wat... i still believe in it... without GOD... there will be no world... there will nt be people... there will nt be US.... so.... i will onli do and think of what i think is correct and hopefully my prayers will be answered.... ^.^.... nite nite jie... cya..... waiting for the day i meet u and u bring me out to eat and play and destress.... hug me and sayang me >.< jie... i miss you ..... but i miss her more..... =p nitenite

afternoon Jie

Good Afternoon To JieJie.... Grats to Me..... i finally changed another dream... but..... it's another dream of ANOTHER PERSON... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz wtf sia... same name.... different pple... >.<>.< zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz tired and sleepy.... but .... no choice lol........... what a dream man... zzzzzzzzzz GOD is my mind clear???i guess no... cos i am having funny dreams now ... lol.. see tonite what dream i got zzzzzzzzzzzz my eyes should be okok.... but these 3 days... i hardly lubricate them =x

oh my oh my.... life is so so so boring lol.... everyday everyone is doing the same things... lol... ya jie... yesterday i typed in personal blog...

Hi.... long time no hear from u but it's ok.... i know u are actually MIAing also??? HAHA.....since that day we were supposed to meet u did nt reply and i know that ya... the answer might be quite straight to me....it's fine with me now... whatever u do , juz take care of yrself and know what u are DOING AND THINKING... although u are happi now... GOOD for u....like u told me u still wanna play... Go and play as much as u like... ^^
i am actually quite happi that u did not remove this..... it might be a way for me to communicate with u... that's so much better then any other forms of communication... Anyway, juz study hard and work ba.. but dun tired yrself...think far of what u do or think, like the consequences, good and bad... etc...... maybe, i did not inherite this much to u...but always remember what u do now will always reflect on what u are few years down the road...so take care of yrself and ENJOY yrself... u might not hear from me for a long long time or maybe never again... it all depends on fate.... see what GOD plans for me ba.... Take care and see ya... ^.^

lol..... zzzzzzzzz i think ..... it's game over.... i dun wanna carry on liao... i am too tried of waiting.... she wan play go play till she happi... i dun care liao.... zzzzzzzzzzzz anyway she is MIAing now... good for her... but she mia in a way where pple can see she is avoiding me.... LMAO.... but i dun care either... about my chess game jie... i will stop it but onli play a bit.... can say... i will get pple to strike and make the attack.... but juz act as a warning???? LOL... see how ba.... i have gained a lot a lot of wisdom and knowledge in these 2 mths... i think i will be a wiser man.... =) good for me ar.... haha.... o.0

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Nite Jie... Slping like a pig?? LOL...today was a tiring day for me... woke up at 9... went sim lim zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz then reach home around 12+ and fuck i forget to bring my hp out....zzzzzzzzzzzzz then went to see some skates with weekiat and his GIRL... LOl... we went to 2 places and ya... i think i gonna get 1 soon... i wanna relax and have some fun lol... muz pick up my skills back.... then we went to batok and buy something and arrr.... we went imm for dinner as they wanted to buy some things from DAISO(2$ Dollar SHop)... i gtg and i went to RCIA.. and wow ... 1st time i go zzzz then after that i went to weekiat's hse and fetch his girl home and here i am back home... jie.. i took few tests in facebook and ya.. it's quite zhun lol... and i saw an email and quite true ar... >.< i forward u the email ba.. update later... i gtg and do things nitenite jie.. Nitenite to her.... ^.^

nite nite jie

jie ar jie... dun be angry for what i posted la... zzz but i really dun understand why my dreams are still the same... i already clear of what i wan lo but... GOD like always making me make those dreams zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... aiyo aiyo.... i dunno la... SOrry jie.....

ya... dad haven slp... and he suddenly told me... dun be sad... juz strive yr career 1st... and u dun need to scare no girls...u las time also got so many girls........ i told him ... how u know... he keep quiet... then i said..u dun always scold me can liao hor.. thanks... LOl he said u in the wrong so i scold u... i said yaya, watever... forget it.. i walk to my room.....to me now... married or nt or whatever.. i dun care... i juz wan to do what i wan... as long as i happi can liao... if i do what i wan, i feel happi and it's bad... i dun care either... LOL.... sorry to have this thinking.. my heart is like the MTV i posted on facebook... KIM... i am beginning to feel like enimem...i know know what it is really like to HATE AND GET REVENGE......i know now is the point where someone is stepping on my tail and not letting it off... it's so painful and hurting ......that's why i am so mad and revengful... sorry jie... i know what i am doing but.... i will forgive onli if GOD hints me or SHE tells me to stop... and i really will.... but i will still torture a bit... or i nt happi... hope u dun mind and i know what i am doing...

i am so so so clear what i wan now... i wan earn lots and lots of money and travel ...i wan to know more pple and widen my network... i wan more wisdom and knowledge.... i wanna be with the one i really love and make a full stop there....i wanan make pple who treat me bad or backstab me suffer... i wan them to know that stepping on my tail or saying bad things behind me will result into bad ending for them.... i wan them to remember me for LIFE.... until i die... i willl still haunt them......it may be hard but i will find ways to do them... to me... nthing is impossible in this world... as long as u really wanna do it... it will always happen....

i took some facebook quiz today.. and ya some of them quite true... ^.^ u read them u sure know if true or not for me LOL... arrr... so sorry jie... 2molo then i post photos.. lol...lazy to post today and 2molo i need to go many places... zzzzzzzzz i wonder why i am getting to know more and more things... will someone know too much things or gain to much wisdom and go crazy ???? i suddenly feel that GOD is giving me quite a lot of talents and i finally realise them now... it might be good for other pple... but to me.... i tend to think and analyze too much of things... omg... why is that so????why does my brain work in a way where i think so much further then normal pple... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz why is it that i am so so so emotional.... zzzzzzzzzzzzz my friends used to say i am like the "weather".... i have bad mood swings... now.. i find i have changed this.... finally.... thank GOD....

Yesterday my friend told me... Life muz go through, pain,suffering,love,happiness,joy,etc.... ya ... it's so true... without all these , there is no life....Life... Life.. Life... zzzzzzzzzz alright jie... i gonna slp... update 2molo and pls pls pls dun be angry about me le ok??? SOrry... T.T
Nitenite Jiejie and ???? Miss you lots and sweet dreams.... ^.^

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Omg jie... las nite i slp at 5... then i woke up at 8.30-9 to answer a phonecall from my auntie about computer thing... SIAN.... Then i slp till now... 2.25... so so so tired... and i had a dream.............. jia lat... i dream of that IDIOT... omg... we were in a room .... suddenly i took a pencil and jumped onto him and nearly pierced into his face.... and i stopped there.... he keep saying sorry sorry... then all my friends who supported me came into the room and those who were nt involved were forced to left.... he then told me... u will nt get away... i told him... i am well protected by pple here... here got cid, tp,lawyer, goverment pple etc... with high ranking pple... and got hardcore gangsters.... he then shivered and was forced to talk to me.... he keep saying sorry...i told him too bad to u... i remembered i showed him a picture of his mom and dad.... he said sorry i will nt contact her again.. i promise... i will vanish in front of u... he said pls leave them alone... i then showed him pictures of his good buddies.. he then was so scared... i printed his documents and showed him ... and i told him to read them out... he was so suprised i have everything ... -.- then i was about to torture him i remember i brought in 3 huge dogs and told him... u like to fuck right... now let the dog fuck u... he had no choice but to do it... i video the whole process and i told him... if anything happen u will be popular in the world... then my dream stopped... OMGOMG... why am i thinking of these... i dun wanan think of this liao... i was to think of another person... omg omg...

I am so so so so frightened of this dream and so so so tired.... i have lessons later.. zzzz... GOD are u implying to me that my mind is still nt clear??? i know i am clear... but hor.. why ar... why is it like this... this incident keep appearing in my dreams... i dun this to happen.. sigh,....i am so so so frightened and loss again... i knwo that what i do there will be a result... like cause and result... retribution and karma... omg.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz GOD pls stop these lame dreams for me pls... i wan another type of happi dream with her... nt these... i know my mind might be still very vengeful... sigh......i reallly hope all these will stop....i am going to go crazy..................... i know who i wan and what i wan le GOD... but why ar.... >.<>.<

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morning jie... lol.. yesterday nv update so very very tired... yesterday whole day tiring... zzzzzzzz reached home around 1+ then bath etc.,.... yesterday nt much to talk la lol......but i buy 4D 100 TIO EAT... SAD....

Okok... today i buy around 70+ and i tio 100$ LOL... and hor jie.. got 7 numbers all miss by 1 digit... if nt.... Ho seh liao lo... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz but nvm la... slowly.... today i went to develop photos for a friend and went to his shop then time there was so fun ... lol... we joked and laughed so much and i learned so much... i got more wisdom and knowlegde....and i rode bike today after 2 mths... LOL.. the feeling is so so so shiok... i love it... lol.. then hor went for number ball... 5 games i think and i won 2 bucks LOL.....that's so funni.. then we eat and go home and WTF.... my friend call me today ask me wan buy SINGAPORE POOLS football... WTF SIA... if i buy i win .... zzzzzzzzzzz too bad... lol... suan le ba.... slowly slowly hor... my bro came back from thailand today and he got me a very good t-shirt... LOL.. i take photo of it 2molo and post ba... LOL.. really very LMAO... hmmm....

today i noticed something again and got a mysterious call... o.0... pple care for me... and i am very happi... but i will still pray for pple whom are dear and good to me... =) alright i go do my things a while more and slp le jie... nitenite.... ^.^

Ops jie...

wa jie.. juz finished lunch... and guess how many bowls of rice i eat... LOL.... i eat 5 bowls of rice omg so so so full and i think my appetite is coming back... whahaha.... and ya jie ar... i yesterday got 2 cuts on my thumbs on both hands... SAD SAD MAN.. haiz... poor me hor.... T.T -.-....and ya jie... i rememebred i saw the chinese horoscope about me... and they said i will have lots of "accidents" that will see blood... that includes these cuts -.- zzzz so many times le... these 2 mths my both thumbs injure almost more then 4 times... and hor tey said i will go through a sugery and it really happen... omg omg omg.. hopefully the rest is true also ba... keke......later i goign to buy something for my friend... ^.^ an hourglass... hehe... nice nice hor... i buy le then take pic ba... i going out soon and i am still so so tired.... T.T when i am back i will update u jie.. i think i will be back early 2nite... ^.^.... cya jie... take care.... =p

Wa... Body pain pain

Afternoon jie... woo.... i finally slp till song song ar.... but hor... my whole body are aching... ar man.... pain pain pain... ya i tell u jie... i had 2 dreams of HER... WTF.... wrong dreams sia....the 1st dream is...i was downstairs her sch... cos i wan too pissed off that she is dragging...when she came down she straight run ...... run to a place... i followed and she run and hugged a guy -.-..................i was more pissed off but then i forgot the dream liao... LOL....2nd dream was....i was out with a girl.... she suddenly appeared to me and WTF... she told me she is hurt... she wans to be 2gether with me again... my answer to her was NO.... i am happi with my current gf now.... and we might be getting married soon... and she told me.... if i do this she will commit sucide... WTF... she is that type of person who will nv ever commit sucide .... but that's in my dreams... maybe it will nt happen... =)

ok... i woke up and 1st thing i do is go down buy 4d... LOL... wa... buy till close to 100 sia... fucking broke now... omg... zzz hope can tio a bit so i can have more xtra money for better plans... =p .... ok jie i update later ba... i now try to do my project a bit....=p .... cya again...

A NEW BEGINNING FOR ME JIEJIE.... ^.^

Alright... today is my best day of my life...... i woke up in the morning and learned to cook MEE SUA .... today was my 1st time cooking myself... lol... the mee sua comes with abalone, crab meat, meat ball,prawns and chicken....ooooo the soup is delicious... maybe the abalone made them nice... lol... i am trying so so so so hard to cook myself... so nx time at least i can cook for my gf/wife to eat ... lol... at least i know how to cook a bit hor(besides maggie mee)... lmao...

Ok... then i went to work.... imagine... i worked till 2.45... wtf... but between them i was travelling...o.0.... GOD... i think i am enlightened by u.... i hope i can TOUCH her... pls.... hope she knows that i still love her despite time... i forwarded her an email.....it's a pic about a dog with 2 hands and ya.... i send in this message...

???, hope this email brightens your day and enlightened you.Despite losing two "hands", the dog still nv give up... You have lots of strength too...Time can heal those sad and bad memories away...Just forget the past and treat it as a lesson or experience... U might gain more experience or knowledge through them... Although i dun know yr exact problem but i guess it's quite similiar to mine ba...You do not want to talk about it but sometimes saying it out really makes you feel better... It works on me....Despite my experience las few mths... i finally managed to forget and forgive them all... my mind is so clear now... i know who and what i want in life now... maybe it's fated... i always told myself... what i do now will reflect on what i will be 5 yrs later... so u must be as strong as me ok?? Jiayou... you are in my prayers every night you know... ^.^ no matter what, juz remember GOD is with you and will support and guide u....And i will be there for u spiratually to also support you .... ^.^
Alright, sorry for this lenghty message... i am going to join u in dreamland now... haha =p
Sweetest dreams for you everynight.... ^.^
Yours sincerely,
Sam


Am i sweet... lol...i THINK i am loving and missing her day by day.... omg... GOD am i at fault?? is this a test??? is this what u are hinting me???? arrr man.... pls guide me GOD... we are not young now... lol... maybe time can really bring us 2gether..... =)

GOD... i THINK i know now who i really want and what i really need....Can u pls grant this wish for me???I promise i will be a GOOD BOY now... no more notti notti and bad thoughts... i am willing to stop everything.. maybe play 1/100 of my chess..... juz for some revenge lol... but after that i will stop them.....i promise to be a good bf/husband ,friend,son,brother...i will try to be a CLOSE TO PERFECT boi/guy.... pls guide and help me.... Thank you ..... i am saying these deep from my heart....... Pls grant my wish...... ^.^

Ok... it's late....gtg slp liao... update more 2molo....
love u ???? , miss u ???? .see ya in dreamyland..... ^.^

o.0 Jie

Morning jie.... i have a dream las nite about HER again... but i forgot the dream.... sigh... nvm ba.... i find that she's like MIAing ... but i dun care either... she wanan do wat nt my problem right? i tried to care for her but... she's avoiding or dun care about it.... she did not login msn or facebook for so long... but it's ok... she wanan mia.... maybe the other time i MIA she wanan do the same... but i MIA is for GOOD REASONS example(my dad)..... sigh.... hope she knows what she is doing ba... hope she knows what she really wans and know what she is thinking... she is changing so so much ... mostly from good to bad i guess.... she wans to play now but i hope she will nt step into the fire or circles of traps..... i do not know the reason why she wans to play but i believe it's her surrounding friends that made her like this.... for this i can CONFIRM....sigh....i juz dun bother much... but i juz find that our relationship had made her like this... it's so sad ... i felt that i have made her to become like this or maybe she herself is doing it like this???? i dun know either.....i am not saying what she is doing is wrong but.... she is not like this before... she even deleted her blog... omg.... to me i think... ok lo... u wan do until like this.... i also nt to say.... maybe she attached liao.... but hopefully not... or i will tend to see her true colours..... she will let me have a very very bad impression of her... and fell very disappointed in her.... she told me... before me... she and her ex problem... she said she dun wan history to happen... but i also do hope it will nt happen.... i was there for her when problems came between her and her ex.... is this retribution or karma??? To me she's a very good and intelligent girl... but she dun know how to apply them well... i tot i have made her a better girl when we were 2gether .... but it seems that it's worst... omg... anyway.... juz hope for that day we can meet out for a talk... i dun have much hope of us being 2gether again... but if possible it's good too... but if nt... then i respect her decision... although i am the victim (OVERALL) i will nt persuade the matter much... but my chess will still continue and start.... i wan revenge... i am very bad to think this way but jie i am forced to do it.. ..maybe someone had crossed the wrong path or stepped the wrong tail..... i know u will know what am i implying to.... no matter where u hide or run , as long as it's in SG... i will track,hunt and find u down one day.... i have my ways... GOD granted me with these and i will make full use of them...

sigh... i dunno y... today when i woke up my eyes are so freaking freaking pain... sobsob.... ya i forgot to tell u jie... i went for my eye review and the doctor said..... my eyes are recovering well and good... my left eye is 25 degree and right is 75.... she said dun worry.... cos my eyes are STILL recovering... and she told me to lubricate best hourly... ^.^ i have another review 3 mths later... by then my exams will be over.... ^.^

ooo jiejie... i think i know what and who i really wan liao.... is it fate??? or is it something like pple said... no matter what ... i will be like a big circle and come back to u....what is yrs will be yrs,no matter how u avoid it will still come back to u.... wat nt will nt be yrs no matter how hard to try or do anything... is this a 2nd chance given to me by GOD?? OR is it a test?? or is it a hint????does SHE know it?? i believe yes but.... is it time again?? omg... life is so complicated when love appears in our life... without love wouldn't life be much more perfect??? but without love there will not be kids, or more pple in the world... omg... i am thinking like... -.- i also dunno what i am thinking of.... it's makes me see life like... arrrr.... love....

jiejie... i am so bored o..... so wanna go for a break somewhere ..... sigh.... but i am nt able to.... my reservist is nx mth on the 8th... i have deferred but it was unsuccessful... oh man..... but i reappealed and i am waiting for the answer now... if fail again i will go back to camp and find my officer to fuck him again...i got 1 friend that time defer also cannot he go camp and fuck the officer....LOL... and he got deferred -.- zzzzzzzzzz cos the decision is made by them... and when i was in the army he's very good with us and now he dun understand why we wanan defer????? fucktub officers.... maybe nx time i jio many pple mc 2gether see how they die... LOL....i wanted to go back actually but.... i got sch and work and many other things to do... zzzzz

jie i send u the email few days back u received mah? have u read them??? it's about the friends de... ya... quite the same when i told u 3 yrs back when i was in aus right... lol... friends come in many types...certain friends come and go..... but the email more detail la.. wat seasonal etc.. lol... but my meaning also quite the same right... LMAO... i think i can predict liao... lol.....good for me ba... these type of things i can predict ... other things cannot lol... i wan predict 4D or toto leh.... i wan suck money from goverment... lol... i broke sia... and goverment is always kill us... 7% GST is killing us... my sch fees for degree 16k+ haven + 7% gst= omg man.... still thinking do in sg or overseas..... it all depends on her... ^.^ that her is very special hor... lol... can control me... -.- zzzzzzzzzzzz jie ar jie..... why am i so hard to understand 1... lol.... i dun even understand myself well..... but i admit i did leveled up a bit to understand myself lol...

ok jie... i go rest a while... later 11+ i got things to do...cya jiejie... ^v^

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Hey jie... long time no update le ar me... lol .... today was okok day for me la... lol..hmmm... today took some facebook quiz... quite true... see ar....

Quiz 1
Their emotions influence their decisions. They have a strong urge to take care of others and to help. They are very loyal and make great teachers. They make loyal friends who take the friendship seriously. 6’s should learn to differentiate between what they can change and what they cannot.
Quiz 2
you are the most faithfull of them all yet the easiest fooled by partners. You are the type to give your all and have others take advantage of your kindness and generosity...You are the most trusted, and faithfull person.
Quiz 3
You can feel the other peoples need. You are not falling for girls, who are hunting after you. You need your time till you get more seroius with the girl, who fits to you. Time is running and you make your desicions that can change lifes...
Quiz 4
U care about your friend more than yourself..u'll never back off when your friends need you.....and people will always find a true friend in you...
Quiz 5
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
Quiz 6
what he/ she z feelingz r true ! and refLectin on his/ her actions ! congradulations!!! make a muve b4 its tooo LAte !! or jus w8 for him/ her to cum 2 you!!!

that's so true lol..... ya jie... las nite i emailed HER and pm her in facebook...

Ya... sorry... 2molo morning i cannot make it.... got to fetch my bro to the airport and then got to work after that... can onli meet u around nite... cos i got lessons around 9+ or 8+.... u can sms me to confirm... thanks..

we were supposed to meet today but after smsing her... no reply... this is how it goes...

SAM= So wat time u can meet me later at nite
JADE=Tonight cannot.. other days ba...
SAM= No.Settle it once and for all
JADE=Huh? Settle what? tonight i try ba...
SAM=Why u cannot.
No reply after this..
SAM= I dun wan our things to drag so long.. Although we broke off... i wanan say things clearly face to face... i wanna see if i should continue waiting for u a not.so we muz meet and talk. it will onli take a few horus of yr time..
No reply again.
SAM=So? U can find time to talk things out? I dun wanan drag it liao.. u were the one who said today. and now u say cannot.. pls try yr best by today... and tell me the time...

She was the one who told me today and now she's avoiding it..maybe she's busy but this is more important then any other things.... i jolly well know the MAIN REASON why she wanan come out and talk also.... it's a prediction but i believe i am correct... not 100% but 99% correct... WTF... i am quite tired of waiting already jie.... i find i am juz a COCKHEAD to juz sit and wait and know so many things... although yes i still love her... but i am afraid my love for her will fade..... i do not wan this to happen... but she's like forcing me to do it indirectly...i know i still love her... but sometimes i am afraid love will become hate... that's not i wan either... i juz wan her to settle it with me once and for all... i wan her to juz tell me... does she still wan me to wait for her? etc.... if yes... i dun mind waiting again.... but.... she muz promise me somethings... i know it's kinda of hard but no choice... LOVE is TRUST....i tend to trust her so so so so so much but..... sigh.... not wanting to talk much about it again... if she finds that i am not suitable for her... she wants to play ... she got another guy who is better then me or watever... she go lo.... she happi nx time or suffer i dun care also.... i juz feel that our 1 yr + relationship is juz a game for her.... NOT TRUTHFUL AT ALL FOR HER... SHE MADE ME TRUST HER AND LOVE HER SO MUCH AND THESE HAPPENS... FUCK IT... u may think i am pushing the blame to her but no.... i am at fault too.... i tend not to show her care and concern much... i plan things and nv told her... but those plans are meant to be suprises.... GOD AR .... why ar... suprises backfire and HEADSHOT ME... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz sigh... dunno wat to say lol...i tend not to plan mroe suprises already... it makes me feel FAILURE... omg... but i am strong... i will nt fall back once and give up... i will do it more ... i will prove it... ^.^

i took some pics again... but not posting them now.. i will onli post them in a mass ba.... Jie ... many pple told me so so so many things again... ya... i got enlightened.... i gained more wisdom.... i am so fortunate to hear these words of wisdom which really made me change and enlightened me...now my main motive is to clear my las term... one step at a time ba.....Busy year for me maybe... Maybe nx mth going redan, sep myammer, oct japan, nov yr place.... arr... travelling... makes me so tired and emo... lol... but i think i will see things and find things to do.... ^.^ i now become so money minded lol.... i've decided to do lesser bad things and do more good things... to accumalate more merits... ^.^

in my prayers there still will be many pple whom are dear to me.... ESP HER...i dunno why but i juz feel that she's still not WAKING UP, LEARNING AND BECOMING MORE MATURE... i find she's getting worst... being more childish ...still avoiding things and etc..... i dunno.. that's what i feel i may be wrong.. i may be right... i am not saying SHE IS 100% what i felt... maybe one fine day she will know what i mean ba.... maybe by that time... i will be away so so so far away or maybe dead by then.... hopefully she stills remember my words back then...nice knowing and seeing pple .... i tend to know who are her GOOD and BAD friends... but i will keep them to myself... she will 1 fine day know them herself, who is good and bad... she tends to be very confident in what she do.... but over-confidence will lead to a fall... i have noticed somethings when we were 2gether... but i dun wanna tell her... cos maybe i respect her and her friends.. but.. till now she still dun realise it... lol.... maybe by the time it's too late for her ba... see how ba... GOD PLEASE PLEASE GUIDE HER..... TEMPORARILY stop guiding me... i know what to do le.... juz focus on her ba...although ya... i have bad thoughs... but i am willing to accept the punishements.. be it retribution or karma... it's the path i choose... i keep saying she's forcing me to do it... but it's juz a phrase to defend myself... whatever it is ... i give up now... i am willing to accept those myself... alright jie.. i currently stop here 1st... i got to do my work 1st... and 2molo will be a long and tiring day for me... arrrr..... >.< jiayou ^.^

Hey jie

jie ar.... yesterday so many things happened... lol... i tell u on the phone ba other days..but got 2 things i asked HER... u stil love me?? No... We still got chance 2gether??? No...LMAO.... i know the reason why lo.... but nvm 1st.... my game of chess will start soon... i will be EVIL... i will be BAD... i dun care how pple see me but too bad... i am forced into this..... i will slowly play this game of chess.... i am well prepared liao.... onli when to start.... lol... ok dun wan say liao.... say le more dulan and hot...say liao my blood will boil... and i will tend to wanan kill pple... LOL... serious as in really kill and torture.... dun worry la... juz angry but will nt do .... always remember wat i said jie... i juz open my GOLDEN MOUTH LOL.............. there will be world war 10 soon... this 10 is created by me....juz let's start the ball rolling.... o.0

today was o.0 day... i completed the pricelist for my customer yes... but onli 1/3... still got 2 more nt done... lmao... then hor... i go meet a friend for dinner.... then i went to find a place...heng ar... find a while can find liao lmao..... oooo... good good... then after that go eat eat and walk walk a while and go home liao... these 2 days i like dun feel like typing... lol... fingers are too tired lmao.... i tell u on the phone ba... so tired now... 2molo still got review zzzzzz 2molo then i update more ok??? nitenite jiejie... miss ya ..... miss elmo too.... ><

WAKE UP JIE!!!

Wake up wake up jie... faster... now 3.30 liao... yr side 5.30.... i 2molo morning 8.30 appointment leh... u haven wake up wtf..................................dun be a pig liao jie.... faster wake up..... i solve yr com problem 1st zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz then at least i can slp a while zzzz

Pictures o....

I love this pic too..... at least i tried to smile hor..... LOL... better room for improvement.... DO i look handsome in this attire rather then my old usual way of wearing clothes??? LOL.... Jie can comment or advice.... =p















FUCKING TRAFFIC LIGHT SO LONG 1......


















This side a bit UGLY.... LOL

















Off to work.... i quite love this pic....

















This car same plate number as my bike... LOL













GOD IS BEHIND ME SUPPORTING ME ALWAYS... =)




















Side view looks more boiboi hor me.... LOL


















After bath pic... SEE THE HAIR SO SUXS................

















I am Blaming GOD.... GOd ar... why ar?????? >.<

Do i look like a businessman??? LMAO.... not in this attire...


















Caught slping in the car by someone.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

















I am so Emo... still dunno how to smile during picture taking LOL.....




















I find my face is shaper now... siao liao... i need to be fat!!!

















These are what we got yesterday again =x

This Is Family Photo.... See the Baby stitch ... so huge.... like ELMO FAT BOI NOW... LOL.....

This is the couple stitch we got...............

Minnie and Me!! =)

This is the Hourglass which i hunted for such a long time... Nice hor jie???

Say GoodBye To my Loving specs since army...

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Hey Jie

Hihi jiejie, today i nv go sch LOL... pon ar... so tired and bored so nv go lo... lol... dun scold me ar ... zzzzzz ... today after customer's hse... i came back and rushed their laptops... juz completed 2 of them... ^.^..... ya.... juz now today dad came back... sudennly talk to me sia... so nice..... lol cos i cooking maggie i super super hungry so muz eat or gastric again... =( he said why nv call tell me i buy for u la... LOL...then he asked about HER.... i say both of us busy zzzzz he said, I THINK I SAW HER LAS WEEK... SHE WAS WITH A GUY.... ASK ME IF I KNOW THE GUY... I SAY DUNNO BUT HE SURE DIE... LOl... DAD asked , u 2 quarrel??? i said no... LMAO... then he said.... if u need help or wat juz tell me LOL.... WTF WTF WTF.... I SHOULD FUCKING RECORD WHAT HE SAID.... AND I WILL TIO TOTO AND 4D FOR THE WHOLE MONTH.... LOL...even i tell my friend he also dun believe LMAO.... ya my bro said he thurs going thailand till sunday... FUCKING SAD... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

okok i update some pics 1st ... u so long nv see me le hor jie... LOL....

FUCK IT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

jie ar jie .... FUCK SIA.... juz now hor i typed so so long then i forgot and restart my com... FUCK IT MAN.... ya... i try to remember what i type... i woke up yesterday i think 6+ a while then i went back to slp.... so so so so so tired..... ya... i woke up at 10.50 like this.... then i found my old songs..... so so so so so many nice nice de.... and sad sad de songs -.- zzzzzzzzzz example......Jeff Chang - 从开始到现在 or Amazing by george michael.... but hor ... SUA LA... LOL..... i need to be happier ^^ i today wake up dunno y... like got many plans i muz do.... lol.... cannot tell u wat =p..... then hor.... yesterday mom asked me about HER 3 times... i said... we busy work and study so she hardly come.... oooooo...mom misses her i guess..... when can i tell her the truth?? when can i tell her, mom we are gone.... she dun like yr son... yr son suxs... if i say like this she sure KILL OR SCOLD ME ONE... ZZZZZZZZZ.....LOL... u wan grandchildren ask justin la... LMAO... if nt i will tell her... ya we will get married soon... ^^.... byebye... we gonna stay 2gether but nt with u all LMAO... 2 of us nia.... see how la.... lmao... to me now marry or not no effect.... wat i wan now is $$$$, FAME, POWER.... LOL....when i die , i wan pple to remember me... ^.^..... think i need to rush out a book which i wanted to publish .... but currently a bit no time to do.... work is already KILLING ME to the max.... WORK IS DRAINING MY ENEGRY.....

Arrrr man... gonna rain soon... and today i no CAR.... cos dad gonna fetch charlene,auntie Christina's daughter....oooooo think i gonna bike to customer's hse.... FUCKING 4 coms to do... zzzzz i think i am PRO..... i always settle problems fast... sometimes less then 5 mins... LOL.. Am i talented or lucky ... lmao... i also dunno..... ya ya ya..... 2molo morning muz wake up so early zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... tonite got class.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i guess tonite dinner = mac.... NONO cannot... every monday science center de mac close at 7PM..... fucking early zzzz....see how ... see wanna eat wat la... maybe JIAN FEI.... LMAO....

i decided liao... from today onwards... i gonna totally change myself.... i wanna be a new new new samsam..... yesterday when pple saw my pic on my laptop.... pple cannot recognise me ...... pple say totally different... pple say handsome... lol.... =x .... Ya... i gonna make myself very very handsome , smart and rich now.... i gonna DO IT... and i gonna change... make pple notice me.... make pple see .... i can do it... LOL.... maybe dreaming but i think can la... i got so many supporters.....

omg jiejie... gonna strat rain liao... i was trying to sing a song AMAZING for so so long... ya... i got it now.. i think should be quite ok ba.... LOL.... but hor... u still cann listen... =x

The lyrcs by George Michael=AMAZING

I was mixed up when you came to me ,Too broke to fix Said 'daddy get you gone,
I'm missing my baby' Still missing my baby
I was stitched up by the hands of fate ,Said how you gonna make it on your own
If luck is a lady? Maybe luck is a lady

I was going down for the third time ,My heart was broken,
I was not open to your suggestions I had so many questions ,That you just kissed away

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise, The day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing, The way that love can set you free
So now I walk in the midday sun ,I never thought that my saviour would come
I think it's amazing ,I think it's amazing, I think you are amazing

You tried to save me from myself ,Said 'Darling, kiss as many as you want!
My love's still available ,And I know you're insatiable'
We're like victims of the same disease ,Look at your Big Bad Daddy, and your mom
And your mom...was always acting crazy

I was going down for the third time, My heart was broken,
I thought that loving you was out of the question ,
Then I saw my reflection Saying please don't let this go

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise The day you walked in and changed my life I think it's amazing, The way that love can set you free So now I walk in the midday sun I never thought that my saviour would come I think it's amazing I think you're amazing ...

OMGOMG JIE... i juz saw an accident outside when i was smoking... so so loud and BANG... WTF.... GOD PLS BLESS THEM.... omg omg.... hopefully no one is hurt... pls... >.< i am the witness of it... -.- i know who's wrong and right.... lol... ok jie i go 1st be back later.. =p late liao

Nitenite jie

GOOD MORNING JIE!!! LOL.... it's 3.30am at sg now -.- zzzz i juz finished my bath after completing 20% of a customer's job zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... i very hardworking hor .... lol...................jie ar jie... today was a zzz day... i went to work and my bro sms me DINNER 2gether??? i said ok lo... then i sms all MOTHERS in my phone.... then mom called me and i was in the lift around 6.... then we went to imm to eat long beach.... end up i pay zzzzzzzzzzzz..... and the food i nv eat much... cos mostly seafood... WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cab, prawns etc... all cannot cos of lasik zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz during the whole dinner.... i nv talk more than 5 sentences... LOL... then i went home and was bored.... mom and dad quarelled again zzzzz..... aiya dunno wat la... i hear le dulan go out.... so i went to meet a friend "Yilin" .... dun worry jie , i treat her juz like my little sis... ^.^ we went occ and play billard....

OMG GUESS WAT JIE.... 2nd 1 dollar coin.... i got the BABY STITCH... LMAO.... then i was addicted and omfg... today i got 3 Bears... LOL.... lucky lucky hor lmao.... but yilin wanted one so she got it... LOl... then i though .... the baby stitch was bigger then mom and dad.... and i tot... ya hor... elmo now is bigger and fatter.... LMAO... funni me right -.- zzzz but a bit true also lol.... then fetched yiling back and now do my work........... i did till now lo.... i am so so so so so tired.... tuesday morning full body checkup.... wednesday lasik checkup.... BORING.... after this lasik check up better.... i think hor i am more free.... jie... i miss elmo so so so much.... wondering how is he now.... is he still notti?? is he still giving mummy problem??? hope not.... =) as for missing her no need to say much... u know the answer lo.....LOL..... and of course i miss u jie... LOL... -.- .....Mother's day -.- ....................... i think there should be BACHELORs DAY LOL.... that's very random... -.- i guess i am too tired... dunno wat to write and what i am thinking now... waiting for my hair to dry.... almost le.... guess wat jie.... it's 3.45 now... i think hor... i go and slp 1st... 2molo i need to repair 4 computers zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
BORING....

2molo then i update jie... nitenite and sweet dreams.... nitenite and sweetest dreams to minnie... miss u lots lots too minnie.... ^.^ see u in dreamland again LOL... nitezzzzzzzzzzzzz

Happy Mother's Day ^.^

Good morning jie... juz woke up.... zzzzzzzzzzz................las i woke up again at 6 yesterday -.- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz and hor....i had a dream of she n me again WTF!!!! omg omg omg.... she keeps appearing in my dreams.... >.< dunno is good or bad lol....... it's a dream of going overseas ..... going to find u jie, and to japan.... we so enjoy .... -.- lol... we went 2 places for 2weeks each and travelled around so so so many places.... wa.... how i wish it really happens... lol..... can see so many things and plan so many things 2gether with her ... ^.^ watever it is let's see ba..... see what GOD plans for me and her....

ya jie... i downloaded the program structure for my degree and masters liao... 2nite then i send u u see for me and find sch.... so far i heard onli 2 uni in the world offer my degree and 1 uni onli offers the masters.... my course is IT DEGREE IN (Networking,Security). these 2 are the majors....xie xie ^.^

ya my eyes are getting clearer and clearer day by day i think... nt sure lol... see wednesday the review wat the doctor says.... when i wake up today mom scolded me dunno for fuck... then i super attitude her back she keep quiet... WTF MAN... early mornign wan niam me and i dunno wat she saying.... i am too tired and stone....anyway HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM!!! ^.^Sry cannot accompany u today... gtg out work, do things.....zzzzzzzzz ho ho ho.... i gtg liao jie..... update 2nite ok?? =) miss u jiejie.... MISS U LOTS LOTS minnie mouse ^.^

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zzzzzzzzzz jie... i juz finished work again at home.... SAD MAN.... and i haven bath... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz today hor... i go work... i propose de sample... so so so many mistakes lol.... maybe my chinese suxs... -.-that's why i redo it again 2nite.... then hor... after that i go slack slack a while.... then at nite meet friend go OCC (Yishun) play pool.... and hor... pool is boring and suxs... -.- but no choice no one wanna play snooker... zzzzzzzzz then hor that time my friend help me HOOK 1 STITCH(DISNEY character) out... it's a male... i think 1 mth + ago... and i always think that male is me... so lonely wor.... everyday i drive see him in the car reminds me of myself.... -.- zzzzz then after everything.... i wanna HOOK the female STITCH out... so can have a couple mah.... i got stupid thinking... if i hook her out= Minnie will come back to ME LOL.... wtf man... end up i changed 6$ one dollar coins... and i aim zhun zhun... 1st coin i tio LIAO.... LMAO... 1 dollar for 1 coin.... previously i think 3 pple spend almost 50+ to get that female STITCH... everyone is trying to get a cuple for me..... and today so so heng... i get it with 1 try alone...maybe i told GOD pls... i really wanna HOOK it from the bottom of my heart and yes 1 arrow 1 hit into the bullseye.... LOL... so i went to the car and took pic of it... i am so so so so happi.... Heehee.. other day then i post the remaining pics ba.... i find hor... i am getting really older and older... -.- .... hopefully more handsome and more like a man...can attract more girls mah??? LOL... jus kidding... no intrest too... maybe can attract them and sell them my SOAP and KEYCHAINS or NORTON..... LOL...... haha.....

ya... yesterday de dream hor... i think that i am willing to sacrifice anything for her man... omg... GOD ... that's in my dreams means it show my personality.... WHY AM I SO GOOD TO HER..... WHY...... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Is it cos i still love her?? my friends asked me, do u still love her????? i dunno.... maybe yes , maybe no... then the dream so happen to appear las nite... i think now the answer is YES... if pple ask me do u stil love her again... i will say YES I STILL LOVE HER, I AM WILLING TO SACRIFICE ANYTHING FOR HER AND I SERIOUSLY STILL LOVE HER...I CAN FORGIVE WHAT SHE HAS DONE BEFORE AND FORGET....FOR LOVE I CAN DO IT..... true ar....seriously speaking for the past few weeks... i tend to have the feelings that i am so so disappointed in her... i tend to wanna give up on waiting.... i am beginning to hate her instead of loving her....i dun understand what she is thinking of right now... she says she is happi right now... but is she really happi??Is it a short period of happiness for her NOW?? does she know what she is doing???? does she know that what she is doing now will reflect on herself 5 yrs later or in the future???Does she know that there will be a cause for everything to happen????Is she avoiding things???? Is she hiding something??? Did she really sit down and think what she have been doing or what she really wants???? she says she wanna study hard and work hard... but did she do them all???? is this the kind of happiness she ONLY wans??? all i dunno.... maybe GOD can answer me in future.... but something or someone is always beside me whispering to my ears telling me... u still love her dun u.... why are u having hate instead of love... u jolly well know u love her... u are willing to even sacrifice anything for her.... not to mention to forgive or forget........at least everyday she still comes to yr thoughts whenever u are happi...u wished she was here to share this kind of hapiness with u.... u wished she was here to see what u are doing or thinking.... like u said u are hard to understand... she did told u u are easy to understand... but till now does she really understand me???? i dun think so... i have so many plans i have planned and done... but it's useless now... maybe it will be useful if miracles happens.....u still say u dun love her?? u love her SAM.... u planned for u and her future 2gether.... u made her study... u planned to let her meet Marie Jie end of this yr and to see the house u saw along the beach few yrs back... U planned to bring her to japan, not onli to have a holiday but see the house u intend to buy in future if u migrate there... u planned so so many things.... u taught her things about life and experiences.... u shared with her... and u say u DUN LOVE HER???? U DO LOVE HER AND U STILL LOVE HER... IF NOT, WHY DOES SHE ALWAYS COME TO YOUR MIND WHEN U ARE HAPPI? U ARE JUST WONDERING AND HOPING IF SHE WAS HERE NOW, 2 OF U WILL BE HAPPIER 2GETHER...

anyway jie... enough of these liao... later i sobsob again... LOL... dun worry la... will nt -.- ....ok it's so so late le jie... i 2molo need to wake up at 10am... zzzz i update 2molo again ba... tomolo i got a long long day.... same update at nite or 2molo morning if possible...nitenite jie... it's gonna rain heavily now... nitenite... miss you ..... miss Minnie too..... muacks muacks.... ^.^