o.0 Jie

Morning jie.... i have a dream las nite about HER again... but i forgot the dream.... sigh... nvm ba.... i find that she's like MIAing ... but i dun care either... she wanan do wat nt my problem right? i tried to care for her but... she's avoiding or dun care about it.... she did not login msn or facebook for so long... but it's ok... she wanan mia.... maybe the other time i MIA she wanan do the same... but i MIA is for GOOD REASONS example(my dad)..... sigh.... hope she knows what she is doing ba... hope she knows what she really wans and know what she is thinking... she is changing so so much ... mostly from good to bad i guess.... she wans to play now but i hope she will nt step into the fire or circles of traps..... i do not know the reason why she wans to play but i believe it's her surrounding friends that made her like this.... for this i can CONFIRM....sigh....i juz dun bother much... but i juz find that our relationship had made her like this... it's so sad ... i felt that i have made her to become like this or maybe she herself is doing it like this???? i dun know either.....i am not saying what she is doing is wrong but.... she is not like this before... she even deleted her blog... omg.... to me i think... ok lo... u wan do until like this.... i also nt to say.... maybe she attached liao.... but hopefully not... or i will tend to see her true colours..... she will let me have a very very bad impression of her... and fell very disappointed in her.... she told me... before me... she and her ex problem... she said she dun wan history to happen... but i also do hope it will nt happen.... i was there for her when problems came between her and her ex.... is this retribution or karma??? To me she's a very good and intelligent girl... but she dun know how to apply them well... i tot i have made her a better girl when we were 2gether .... but it seems that it's worst... omg... anyway.... juz hope for that day we can meet out for a talk... i dun have much hope of us being 2gether again... but if possible it's good too... but if nt... then i respect her decision... although i am the victim (OVERALL) i will nt persuade the matter much... but my chess will still continue and start.... i wan revenge... i am very bad to think this way but jie i am forced to do it.. ..maybe someone had crossed the wrong path or stepped the wrong tail..... i know u will know what am i implying to.... no matter where u hide or run , as long as it's in SG... i will track,hunt and find u down one day.... i have my ways... GOD granted me with these and i will make full use of them...

sigh... i dunno y... today when i woke up my eyes are so freaking freaking pain... sobsob.... ya i forgot to tell u jie... i went for my eye review and the doctor said..... my eyes are recovering well and good... my left eye is 25 degree and right is 75.... she said dun worry.... cos my eyes are STILL recovering... and she told me to lubricate best hourly... ^.^ i have another review 3 mths later... by then my exams will be over.... ^.^

ooo jiejie... i think i know what and who i really wan liao.... is it fate??? or is it something like pple said... no matter what ... i will be like a big circle and come back to u....what is yrs will be yrs,no matter how u avoid it will still come back to u.... wat nt will nt be yrs no matter how hard to try or do anything... is this a 2nd chance given to me by GOD?? OR is it a test?? or is it a hint????does SHE know it?? i believe yes but.... is it time again?? omg... life is so complicated when love appears in our life... without love wouldn't life be much more perfect??? but without love there will not be kids, or more pple in the world... omg... i am thinking like... -.- i also dunno what i am thinking of.... it's makes me see life like... arrrr.... love....

jiejie... i am so bored o..... so wanna go for a break somewhere ..... sigh.... but i am nt able to.... my reservist is nx mth on the 8th... i have deferred but it was unsuccessful... oh man..... but i reappealed and i am waiting for the answer now... if fail again i will go back to camp and find my officer to fuck him again...i got 1 friend that time defer also cannot he go camp and fuck the officer....LOL... and he got deferred -.- zzzzzzzzzz cos the decision is made by them... and when i was in the army he's very good with us and now he dun understand why we wanan defer????? fucktub officers.... maybe nx time i jio many pple mc 2gether see how they die... LOL....i wanted to go back actually but.... i got sch and work and many other things to do... zzzzz

jie i send u the email few days back u received mah? have u read them??? it's about the friends de... ya... quite the same when i told u 3 yrs back when i was in aus right... lol... friends come in many types...certain friends come and go..... but the email more detail la.. wat seasonal etc.. lol... but my meaning also quite the same right... LMAO... i think i can predict liao... lol.....good for me ba... these type of things i can predict ... other things cannot lol... i wan predict 4D or toto leh.... i wan suck money from goverment... lol... i broke sia... and goverment is always kill us... 7% GST is killing us... my sch fees for degree 16k+ haven + 7% gst= omg man.... still thinking do in sg or overseas..... it all depends on her... ^.^ that her is very special hor... lol... can control me... -.- zzzzzzzzzzzz jie ar jie..... why am i so hard to understand 1... lol.... i dun even understand myself well..... but i admit i did leveled up a bit to understand myself lol...

ok jie... i go rest a while... later 11+ i got things to do...cya jiejie... ^v^