Tired ar jie.... >.<

Morning jie... i juz woke up and yes... las nite after i post till now.... i nv wake up finaly............... but i had a nightmare... i dream of one very very impossible thing... zzzz.... i dreamt of that IDIOT call n say she's at the hospital.... then i rushed there.... that idiot was scared of me.... -.- then she had a kidney problem and doctor said she needs one... so i told the doc am i qualified , the doc said yes and ya we went for the sugery .... after that... everything is successful and fine.... i was on the bed and too tired and weak.... T.T i juz hope that everything is good for her... and then that idiot talked to me to apalogize etc... i told him it's no use... i will still haunt u.... u will still suffer.... zzzz after that a few mths later... she recovered and find me... i am still in the hospital cos too weak... and i was like... ya u are recovering i am happi and then i told her... i am very tired pls leave the room..... T.T jie does it mean i am not able to forgive her??? does it mean i dun love her already??? i am in a mess........ but no matter what it's juz a dream.... sigh....i am so so so tired and have a very very bad headache when i woke up... ya... mom's operation is successful too... thank GOD... i am juz too tired and sleepy now but i still got to type this , if nt i will forget it... then hor i need to go work again...........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz so so so tiring ...................... guess it's what life is all about... i always said... everyone is born to wait and die... we do the same things.... study.. work..and die.... if nt.... study ... work..... date... marry.... die.... lol... also same logic... we survive to earn money and spend and die..........zzzzzzzzzzz why why why so funni 1 lol....................whatever it is... i juz hope she's fine.... and know what she is doing .... i will pray everyday to make her clever, smart and know what is right and wrong... maybe GOD can help me by guiding her....GOD pls help to answer my prayers ....i believe i still love her ..... and god.... pls give me the strength to love her more and make my love stronger... i am getting weaker and weaker as days goes by.... i think it's maybe time that's playing a part.... GOD... pls help us... help everyone in this world who needs help.... help her family members, mine too and pple around us..... i know u are great and wonderful GOD.... pls Help us.... thank you GOD.... ok jie... i think i gonna bath and change and off to work i go again............ -.- tired.... >.< tonite then i update... i think i wanan go out today.... so long nv go out... always work work work... zzzz see where then i go ba... cya jie... free DUN SMS me... cALL me cheaper... LOL... miss ya..... miss MINNIE too.... ^.^