Morning Jie Jie~~

Morning Jie ^.^ Today I am inherited by the DEVILS.. HAHA.. my mood is so super GREAT WHEN I WAKE UP ^^ HAHA................. I THINK I SHOULD NOT LOGIN FACEBOOK AND MSN LIAO... SERIOUS.... FROM NOW ONWARDS... TILL WHEN I AM FEELING BETTER AND HAPPIER.... HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH SO IF I NV REPLY IN FACEBOOK PLS UNDERSTAND...PLS TELL PEIPEI NOT TO WORRY TOO...THANKS..... BUT THERE's ONE WAY U CAN FIND ME.. I PROMISE TO ANSWER ANY CALLS FROM U .......THAT"S A PROMISE FROM ME TO U.... BUT MAKE SURE U ARE ALONE WHEN U SPEAK TO ME..

I FIND GOT SPIES OR PEOPLE TALKING BEHIND MY BACK AROUND ME... BUT I STILL DUNNO WHO... WHOEVER IS IT I FUCK CARE.... BUT IF I KNOW WHO IS THAT PERSON, I WILL SURE MAKE THAT PERSON SUFFER....REMEMBER WHAT I SAID... WHAT U HIDE NOW SURELY COME TO LIGHT 1 FINE DAY.. SOONER OR LATER.... EVEN IF 10 YRS LATER ... I WILL STILL REMEMBER AND START THE BALL.......I DUN CARE HOW PPLE SEE ME NOW!!!! I FUCK TUB OR IDIOT OR FUCKER OR CHILDISH OR STUPID OR WATEVER U NAME ME .. I DUN FUCKING GIVE A DAMN NOW... WHY AM I LIKE THIS??? GOD PLS DUN BLAME ME... I GOT REASONS TO DEFEND MYSELF.....I AM FORCED TO BE LIKE THIS... U KNOW WHY? U LOG IN FACEBOOK AND U KNOW WHY LIAO... THE COMMENT AND REMARKS.... SO FUCKING IMPLYING ME COS I SUSPECT SHE KNOWS THIS BLOG!!!!!!! IT'S JUZ A GUESS BUT MY GUESSES ARE ALWAYS PREDICTED CORRECTLY....I AM NOT STUPID TO DO SUCH THINGS.. I JUZ NEED TO OPEN MY GOLDEN MOUTH AND THINGS CAN BE DONE THE WAY I WAN THEM TO....HAHA... GOD GRANTS ME ALL THESE TYPE OF BAD THINGS.. IT"S A TEST OR TEMPTATION???????
I AM NOT SUSPECTING U JIE..DUN WORRY... I KNOW U STILL CARE AND "LOVE" ME ..... WHO REALLY TREATS ME GOOD OR BAD THROUGHTOUT THIS 2 MTHS... I ALSO KNOW... EVEN THE BLIND CAN SEE.... AND GOD KNOWS...... ANYWAY I NOT GONNA CARE... THIS IS MY LIFE... WHAT ROUTE I WALK IS MY FUCKING BUSINESS... THE THINGS I SHOULD NOT SEE DIE DIE STILL COMES TO MY EYES...LIKE MY DAD ALSO... HE PRETEND TO ACT CALM.. BUT I OVERHEAD HE SAYING ABOUT ME TO MY MOM LAS NITE......... LOL!!!!!!!!!!GOD PURPOSELY LET ME KNOW THINGS... GOD ARE U TESTING ME????? LMAO......... SO WHAT??? THINK I CARE?? THINK I BOTHER???? FUCK IT MAN.... GO HELL OR WAT I ALSO DUN CARE.....U CREATED ME WITH A FAMILY, A GF WHO I TRUELY LOVE, FRIENDS, BROS AND SISTERS... AND NOW U TEND TO TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME... TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME... THIS GAME SO FUN FOR U GOD?? I AM SORRY TO SPEAK TO U THIS WAY BUT... IT's WORST THEN IN HELL.... U ARE TAKING ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS IN MY LIFE, AND INTRODUCING BAD THINGS TO ME... IS THAT ANOTHER TEST???????? IS THAT A TEST FOR U TO MAKE WHAT I AM 5 yrs DOWN THE ROAD???? I DUNNo.... GOD PLS STOP THESE TESTS.. THEY ARE COMING ONE AFTER ANOTHER.. I DUN HAVE MUCH STRENGTH LIAO..... I GONNA FALL OFF THE CLIFF......... I GONNA FALL OFF THE MOUNTAIN.. I GONNA SINK IN THE SEA.... WILL U BE THERE TO SAVE ME?? WILL U BE THERE TO PULL ME UP OR GUIDE ME??? OR WILL U JUST SEE ME DROWN OR FALL... WHO WILL BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I AM DIEING, FALLING OR DROWNING????

I ACTUALLY WAS INTENDING TO FORGIVE AND FORGET LAS NITE... BUT!!!!!!!!!!!! NAH.. I HAD A DREAM LAS NITE... THE DREAM TOLD ME... DO WHAT U MUST DO!!! DO IT!!! JUS FUCK CARE WHAT PPLE SEE OR THINK OF U... ANYWAY U ARE FORCED TO DO IT!!!! AHAHHAHAHAHHAH.......THE DEVIL SUCCESS RATE WAS SO HIGH..THEY POLUTED MY MIND...... I DUN THINK I GONNA PUT IN EFFORT LIAO.... THINK I WILL CURRENTLY STOP STUDY OR WORK 1st... NO MOOD...I GONNA GO OVERSEAS AFTER MY 2nd REVIEW ON THE 13th OF MAY 2pm.... GO WHERE I STILL DUNNO....SEE HOW....

NOW I MUZ PLAN MY GAME OF CHESS... WHO TO SACRIFICE, WHO TO START THE CUE... WHO TO ATTACk, WHO TO DEFEND.. WHO TO TAG ALONG WITH,WHO TO MAKE THE SAY... WHO TO GUARD ME..... WHO TO MAKE THE FINAL MOVE AND THEN.... CHECKMATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LMAO......................................... GOD MADE MY BRAINS THINK SO SO SO FAR.. THAT"S A TALENTED GIFT I ADMIT...I KNOW I THINK SO MUCH FURTHER THEN OTHER PPLE..... I AM ABLE TO ANALYZE THINGS FASTER AND MORE ACCURATE NOW....I THINK THE WAY A FORENSIC INVESTIGATOR DOES NOW... THTA"S ANOTHER SKILL I LEARN.....FOR GOOD AND BAD....I DUNNO... SEE HOW.. LET TIME DECIDE FOR ME.. FUCKING TIME AGAIN... EVERYDAY TIME TIME TIME.....ALTHOUGH THE REMARK WAS NOT SO HARSH... MAYBE TO HINT ME TO BE MATURE? MAYBE HINT ME THAT I WILL BE FORGIVEN ? MAYBE HINT ME THAT DON't LIKE can BECOME LIKE IF I DUN? MAYBE HINT ME THAT I WILL HAVE A CHANCE FROM HER AGAIN????AHHHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH................. I DUN FUCKING CARE NOW!!!!

SINGLE OR WAT I DUN CARE.. ATTACHED OR WAT I ALSO DUN CARE...I THINK LOVE TAUGHT ME HATRED!!!!!!!! I LOVE HATRED NOW.. I DUN LOVE LOVE ANYMORE.... LOVE IS A FAKE WORD IN MY LIFE... IT ONLI EXISTS TWICE... AND IT ALWAYS APPEARS TRUE BUT FALSE.... AND THAT IMPACT LOVE TAUGHT ME VERY MUCH TO HATE....AS LONG AS MY TAIL IS STEPPED........... THE GAME OF CHESS STARTS.... I AM SO SO SO FUCKING FORCED TO WALK THIS ROUTE NOW..... I OBSERVE SO MANY THINGS.. ONLI THAT I KEEP QUIET.. I KEEP QUIET COS I LOVE... I AM ABLE TO FORGIVE AND FORGET COS I LOVE...I CLOSE 1 EYE AND EVEN 2 EYES ALREADY...I THINK I HAVE THE 3rd EYE BUT I AM NOT ABLE TO CLOSE IT... SO............THE STEP IS SO FUCKING PAIN... THE PAIN IS WORST THEN WATEVER ACCIDENT I HAD BEFORE, LASIK OR WATSOEVER U NAME IT... LIKE PROPHETS SAID.. I BROKEN HEART CAN BE HEALED BY THAT SPECIAL PERSON...BUT A HEART WHICH IS STABBED DEEP ENOUGH CAN NEVER BE HEALED... NO MATTER HOW U HEAL IT OR COVER IT.. THERE WILL STILL BE A HOLE.. IF IT DOES... THERE WILL STILL BE A SCAR...... UNLESS MIRACLES HAPPEN....

Omg... Jie.. i actually cannot believe i wrote all these... i wanna delete them after reading them but.. i dun think so... it's my devil side coming out.. i wanna keep what i wrote and reflect it when i am free.. i need to control myself.....maybe i am too forced to it... i am sorry for making u worry again... but dun worry some things which i stated above are true onli.. most of them are false.. as for the chess thing .. yes... it's 100% true.. that's always my LOGIC and PHRASE in my life... My ultimate weapon... lol.... although i play this CHESS alone.. i know i will be able to do it... Most of my LIFE PLANS NV FAIL....AND THEY WILL NOT FAIL......EVEN it's 1 vs 100000 PPLE.. i will still tend to win.. i am very confident.. i have faith in myself and GOD.. and pple around me... i have faith that i will be able to accomplish it.. but there might be a price to pay... but i dun care or mind... whatever the price is.. i hope it falls on me.... no other innocent pple will be affected.. or my 2nd step of WEAPON will be out...and the effect will be 100000 times greater then this.. I SWEAR...

no matter what is it... i still love her as much as before... i will still wait for her....i still love my family.. i still love my bros,sisters and u jie..... jie.. u are a really very nice sister .... i dun regret to acknowledge u as my sister... i see u still care for me and HER..... u shown her care too...If i am not around maybe u can help me by caring of her... thanks jie... omg.. u are such a wonderful person.. may GOD bless u.... How much care u shown to me.. I know them all... every single little bit.. THANKS JIE... U ARE GREAT....!!!!!! i will also always remember who were there for me when i am in times of NEED.. i will remember who were there to encourage me.. who were there to take care of me...who were there for me when i was down... who were there for me when i needed HELP....were there to speak and listen to me... who were there to tell me what is right and wrong... so many many more... I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THEM.. UNTIL THE DAY I DIE.. I WILL TELL PPLE WHO ARE THEY, HOW WONDERFUL THEY ARE.. HOW GREAT THEY WERE...

I am wondering if i should live my life in a MASK again.. i removed the mask few yrs back... but it always fails... FUCK MAN... RETRIBUTION??? lol.. i think i will mask myself again.. it will be better.. teach me jie what to do???should i continue to unmask it or mask it back???? I admit i am 27 this yr -.- ... but i still think like a FUCKTARD RETARD... LOL... maybe it's the turning point of me.. a point where it's the most important decision.. 3 more yrs i will be 30... wtf.... after this yr.. it will be a different me.. i know what to do now.... i will juz wait... i will think thorugh what i wrote on top.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i always do things in a clean and neat manner... i will nt do bad things... i will juz wait................ wait............wait.................. wait till the correct time............ wait till things goes GOOD ......................... or maybe wait till the day the game of CHESS STARTS!!.............. cya jie... i am going out already... i am going to WORK NOW!!! SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!i dun wanan go but i promised pple liao.......... at least i still keep my promises LOL... ya jie.. maybe i will not go home for another couple of days.. i will find another place to stay.. staying at home makes me go CRAZY... -.- there are so so so so many things i dun understand till now.... SO MANY .... even if i ask u jie.. u also cannot answer me... seriously so many..... zzzzzzzzz i have another place to go on friday.........zzzzzzzzzzzz WORK WORK WORK AR..... nx week no more work.. no more sch.. see how haha..i am very cool down now.. the devil left me... lol... i am positive thinking now when i wrote these in small letters... trust me jie.. ^.^

ok jiejie byebye..i wil update later ..... ^.^