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Went walking around chinatown today.. seen so many nice things... guess wat i eat today???? PRAWN MEE... WHAHAHHA.... nice nice but fucking ex...zzzzzzzzzzzz then i decided to pack up and go home today.. i check out form the hotel and took a cab home... and i juz got home now~.. my room looks so tidy.. i think my mom tidy them for me... zzzzzzzzz it seems good to be at home but... dunno la.. cos my dad nt back yet.. SEE HOW.. IF 2nite HE KP ME AGAIN.. I SURE LEAVE AGAIN.. AND MAYBE FOR GOOD!!!!!!!!!we had a very very bad arguement las week... so big until he like wanna DISOWN ME!!!!!!! KNN 1 right he.... like i no money like this zzzzz... Pls dun call up my hse to talk about it.. i dun wan it to be worst..i will settle it myself when the time is correct...... Thanks jie...later got sch.. but i think no mood to go.. it's aleady the 2nd week of lessons.. and i haven gone for even 1 ... LOL... see how la... my mind not stable i go there also no heart.... sorry jie... >.< sry everyone....sry minnie...

My eyes... omg... gd and nt good.. dunno how to say.. today weird weird 1... zzzz maybe it will be ok ba....logged into facebook for a while... i saw JADE went from being "it's complicated" to "in an open relationship".... zzz what does it means??? i have the temptation to change mine to Married To Jade Teo.. but i scare... LMAO... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz omg.. many thoughts running around my head... zzzzzzzzzz by seeing that i feel that the answer to me is getting closer and closer... but the answer will be worst and worst... OMG MAN... pls SOS and HELP me GOD!!!!!!!!!!why i so so so love her and she knows it and she still dun wanan accept back my love???? is it got someone else??? is it she dun love me liao? is it she got nth to say to me?or is it something else???arrrr... i dunno..... all these are so unfair to me lo.......kao.....WHY SIA WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????

ya i remembered she email me.. saying i wanna mia. and she hopes to hear from me.and my eyes i need to take care... her results were good... seriously speaking, i did lasik cos of her... i wan her to have a bf or husband she loves to see without glasses everyday.. so i choose to went for lasik.. i admitted i quite regret but hor for her i dun mind... i will endure it...i regretted cos my vision is not perfect,i still cannot see clearly now.... i cannot wash my eyes or rub them, i need to lubricate them every hour!! and each tube costs 55cents...i will try to take care of my eyes but all these are fated by GOD la... if GOD wan u blind u sure blind.. as for the mia again.. nope... i juz wanan cool down.. i got problems in MY TRUE LOVE, family... zzzzzzzzzzzzz all these are driving me crazy ... family maybe consists of 10% of my life while LOVE consists of the remaining 90%...u know my dad and my quarel was super big??? ZZZZZ but i dun wanna talk about it now... the more i talk about it.. the more i wanna leave home......i juz feel like i cannot let her go .... zzzzz it's kinda of selfish .. but .... u all also said.. if u find yr TURE LOVE... u muz cherish and fight for it... so i did it... not becos u all told me, is becos u all encouraged me to do what is right! And i am doing it cos i really really love her...i am not cheating or playing wit her.. She wans to hear from me but i am scare our conversaton will end fast again.. so i stopped.. i actually was replying half way but end up i cancel zzzzzzz... i scare ar JIE... so so so scare.... but seriously if really bad answer.. i also dunno wat to do liao...i will be lost from 90%-99% zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... pray and hope everyday that things turns good ba... i believe GOD also can see what i have been doing and if i really love her a not lo.... But i cannot touch GOD and her... ZZZZZZZ not enough???? zzzzzzzzzz as for her results.. she nv study get B.. if i study can get A... that's good!! but i am afraid she will tend to take advantage of it.. not always so lucky de... no matter what she still muz study regardless if the paper is hard or easy.. so at least after the paper or when the results are out.. she knows that she had done her best...i jus hope she can quickly complete her studies... if not she will be so stress about her assigments , bridging or exams again.... she said JIAYOU.. yeah.. i will JIAYOU for her TOO!!!! her mom nagged her about our relationship... she's very angry.. i knwo she's nt in the mood to talk about this but... maybe she should juz have a nice talk with her mom.. no matter what family members are still closer then anyone else... they born u out..maybe she did nt spend much family time or try to have a good talk with them... remembered las time she dun talk to her mom de.. then their relationship got better when i appeared... NOT BECOS I AM PROUD or wat.. is that maybe i feel i am doing something good... i want her to feel the love of a family.. she's gone through so many bad things including family things.. i have not.. i dun understand but i know i will and must try to rebuild that good bond between her and her family...if i fail... what i can onli do is to pray for her.. my prayers now consists of so many pple, My minnie mouse,all her family members, mine family , me and my close frends,bros and sis..

JIE AR.. can u and peipei stop flooding my wall.. zzzzz thanks ... i see le very headace sometimes... i know 2 of u are very concern of me...but dun worry... i will still continue to update here.... ^.^ so i will let u all know about my things... what i do , what i think.. etc....see later wanan go out or go sch.. might be meeting weekiat(calvin) for dinner maybe later? i haven meet or talked to him for almost a week... lol... i juz spend this week alone in the hotel... and few friends (darren and his friends)to meet up and eat with me.. got once they brough mj up.. kanna COMPLAINT.. LMAO.... then no choice lo... i everyday watch tv, surf net for places i wanan go in future... plan for my future.. ways to earn extra income...how to win her back(but i think i cannot, i am super lousy in this,LOL(that's why u all angels came to speak to me and give me advice, hints, encouragement...))....it's 5pm now.. time passes so slowly when i am home.. zzz ok i update 2nite ba... cya jie...