I Am TOTALLY NOOB in This =x

Whahaha.. Staying in the hotel suxs!!! Everyday wake up dunno go where, do what. Although the aircon runs 24hrs, i can smoke as and when i like, i can go and buy food nearly, order up, etc...BUT.. many china girls around.. hear their voice= TURN OFF + NO MOOD... Too bad, i have totally no interest in girls already..eh friends, although i used to be flirt las time now i 100% change liao hor.. HAHA... meet me then u all know... u can try bring yr friends to intro me also no use 1 .....haha..although i see them but still no INTEREST..Lmao..... maybe cos of 1 person in my life that changed me after my 26+ years of life in this world.... ^.^ who knows, maybe nx time i will be a bachelor or someone who roams the world alone to meet more new pple? ^.^ anyone wanna join me?? Muz booking 1 hor..haha..

Totally no mood to log in facebook or msn.. sorry to all who are looking for me.. Esp Marie Jie..It's very boring.. log in= heart attack sometimes(Last Time).. I love to wait and wait las time... but... always waited and got nthing out of it..zzzz.. dun see me IMPATIENT hor.. i now can wait very very long 1... haha.. BUT if meet me pls dun late hor.. or i surely FUCK U UPSIDE DOWN.......pple keep asking me or talking to me... i feel very very irritated or pissed off.. Sorry to all..Maybe it's the time when i am reaching my "menses period".. hahah......but i always tell myself.. relax... 忍... Wait patiently......lf these are God's Plan, God made this test or route for me to walk.. It's onli how i handle it.....But i always tell myself this simple logic..I ALWAYS BELIEVE IN KARMA OR RETRIBUTION!! GOT LIMIT TO MY PATIENCE 1 HOR..U FUCKING TRY TO STEP OR CROSS MY PATH, I FUCKING MAKE SURE U SURELY SLOWLY SUFFER AND I WILL SLOWLY TORTURE U !AS LONG AS HOW LONG I CAN LIVE! THIS I SWEAR IT MAN...ONLI WHEN I WILL START IT NIA... God always said, forgive and forget. But to me, somethings and sometimes i can , some cannot.. see how.. see my mood, see i happi or not..see whether GOD really change my mindset. =x

For this past 2 mths, i find my thinking have changed a lot, i have changed TOO MUCH.. some pple say GOOD some say BAD..I improved to Think FURTHER then before. I tend to treat things and solve them by Forensic ways.Too much to say.. lazy..nx time then i say.... now i think what i really want most is to WORK HARD AND EARN FREAKING LOTS OF MONEY and FASTER COMPLETE MY STUDIES... And MOST importantly, My Gf to come back to me.... Although we broken off... i still treat her as my gf.. i may be foolish or stupid but, pls friends , pls understand my feelings.. thanks...Some pple say it will take mths or maybe years.. but... i also dunno la... zzzz jus so many BAD things happen at the WRONG TIME FOR ME... FUCK LO... WHY SO ZHUN 1.. BUY TOTO 4D also not so zhun..Maybe GOD arrange all this to happen, but wa lao... why sia.. why on me? why when the time is totally disadvantage for me.... >.< If maybe she finds 2gether with me suxs.. i also no choice.. i did my very best liao...i change but "it's too late" ( what she said) I dun believe that anything is too late to change... onli a matter of time....but no matter what... i will still wait for her.. even when i grow old, i gonna die, my hair turns white or etc..... many pple asked, if one day after many many years she come back to u, how will u react? i said.. i seriously dunno...i know i really love her and still loving her onli in my life.. i find we will maybe be 2gether or not again.. we might= HOPE THE BEST THINGS ALWAYS HAPPENS TO US AGAIN , OUR RELATIONSHIP WILL BE BETTER AND BETTER.. WE WILL LOVE EACH OTHER MORE AND MORE.... ^.^ IF NO= HOPE SHE FINDS SOMEONE WHO TREATS HER GOOD, OR I WILL FUCKING HAUNT HIM EVERYDAY EVEN WHEN I DIE...i might not even want it to happen again.. Aiya i dunno la.... sometimes i think, i dun wanan be hurt again.. i am scare of failure.. i am afraid of everything now...UNLESS SHE GIVES ME THE STRENGTH AGAIN... ^.^

i tend to know who are REALLY good frends, bros or sisters, WHO ARE NOT! BEWARE!!! U WILL BE BLACKLISTED....WHO ARE WEARING A FUCKING MASK AND THINK I DUNNO... I GOT GOOD INSTINCTS.. REMEMBER WALLS HAVE EARS... WHAT U DO NOW, THE TRUTH WILL BE OUT SOONER OR LATER...MY DREAMS ALWAYS COME TRUE... SO U BETTER CHANGE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE OR RETRIBUTION AND KARMA WILL FALL ON U. TRUST ME MAN!!!!....arrrr.... dun wan talk about it liao... later my life - another 3 yrs...like my evil side coming out more.. LMAO...ok i go liao.. update later.. eyes too dry.. need to lubricate it.. ^.^