Tired & Bored....

Today was a -.- day... went to fetch sis meiling from the airport.. she's back from hongkong and her face was so freaking BLACK .. -.-.... ke lian... i tot she went there will be happier when she came back..... but... lmao... My eyes are recovering i guess.. i am beginning to see more clearly but onli that it's too fucking dry.. i still cannot see far far... yesterday i drove my friend's car.. WTF.. i can drive lol... heng i nv get into any trouble.. hahha......BUT HOR...every hr muz waste 55cents.. WTF.. and it's kinda making me pissed off... wasting my precious money......kind of regret LASIK.. but.. too bad.. what done cannot be undone...

Si Marie jie... tell peipei about my problem.... zzzz nv ans her call she use this tatic..WA KAO LO.... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.... i wanna go find them... i am so so bored in sg.. gonna go crazy anytime... but.. muz finish this fucking las term.. faster finish and i am free liao... can go anywhere i wan anytime...damn ... i kinda of miss minnie so so so so much... haven seen her or call her or hug her or kiss her for 2 mths liao zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......but i think she's enjoying herself outside ba.. like she said.. i am selfish.... i juz wanna be happi!!! ok lo.. u wan happi u go ahead lo... i also cannot say anything...i also not her bf now....zzzzzzzzzzzzz TOO BAD SAM.. TOO BAD.... GOD AR GOD.... why sia... why like this? why this happen? why ? why ? why? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz GOD... should i GIVE UP?? I am lost and tired.. i tried my very very best 100% to make her feel loved and happi but nth happens or nth helps... no effect ............. i know i still love her as much as before.. i am STILL LOVING HER ... u send so many obstacles and traps for me in this 2 mths, but i believe in myself and her.. my heart still tells me.. there's onli 1 in my heart.. and that's her... MINNIE MOUSE...GOD.. pls stop testing me or wat again pls... it's no use....Juz answer my prayers and help me pls... =(

She emailed me early in the morning 6.07am... WTF she's slping later and later... going out till so so late and nt slping early.... but it's not my problem now... i HOPE it's my problem but i am in no position to care for her again.... SUPER SAD... Not i wanna mia.. is like i am very very lonely now.. juz wan some time alone.. cancelled all appointments for the time being juz to destress myself.. wanan go overseas but cannot.......... fuck the lasik.... did not wanna ans yr call not cos i busy.. it's cos i am afraid that our conversation will be short...u have nth much to talk to me.. but do u know i have lots and lots of things to tell u, to share with u....... sigh.....i am very HAPPI yet FRIGHTENED when i see the call.... i am afraid jus so afraid..... i am becoming more timid... i am becoming more useless.. i am afraid i will lose u forever.. zzzzzzzzzz damn it... this suxs.......maybe 1 day i should juz leave ..... leave this place... leave this sorrowful and painful place... go to a place where nobody knows me... start afresh... that's what i really call MIA...but see how ba... juz planning but it might nt work out either... maybe good things happen and made me stay.. i also dunno.. let's see what GOD has to do... what decision will she make.... how much she knows i loves her.. how much she mean to me...how much i care for her.. and finally how much she is in my heart now....

FUCK the aircon.. making my eyes dry...need to waste another 55cents... zzzzzzzzzzzz