Afternoon Jie~

Afternoon.. i was surfing the webbie for my sch stuff and this pop up happened to appear.. so i click and -.- all the love quotes are found there... i gone through all of them and found most of them i find meaningful.. it's not i WANNA GIVE UP!! but it makes sense.... No matter wat i will still not give up and wait for her.... I do not know how long will it take but... i will continue to wait..... i know waiting is kinda of foolish... but to love is to wait... see the las love quote... "He who is not impatient is not in love." I am in love so i am waiting... ^.^

Sometimes i am afraid love will also turn it into hatred!!!!! Maybe it's the devils playing mind games with me... i sat down or lie down on the bed quietly.... and think......... Am i not happy? Am i hating her? Why am i waiting? Am i still loving her? What am i thinking... i had this thoughts almost everyday...and the final result everyday is = I SERIOUSLY LOVE HER,I WILL WAIT!Unless i am lack of strength ...... i will leave..... i believe Love and GOD and everyone outs there who encourages me or supports me(ANGELS) is still prolonging my strength...if not i would have already broken down 1 mth ago.........i do have thoughts of avoiding this.... by juz booking an air ticket and leave here for couple of mths.... but.. i cannot bear to do it.... i am afraid... this will make things worst.... i am already 27 this yr.. i need to know what's right and wrong... but.... nvm about it... let's skip this for the moment...

I wanna be alone jus to sort things out.... sometimes i dun even know what i am trying to sort... maybe i juz wanan be alone??? i dun know either.... i tend not to know more about myself now.... i tend not to know what i want sometimes... i know some .... I WAN OUR RELATIONSHIP TO BE BETTER... TO REUNITE.... I WAN HER BACK IN MY LIFE, TO SHARE AND GO THROUGH LIFE WITH ME....I WANT TO SHARE WITH HER WHAT I KNOW IN LIFE.. MY EXPERIENCES, THOUGHTS AND THINKING.....I WANNA SHARE WITH HER WORDS OF WISDOM FROM SOME CUSTOMERS WHO HAVE ENLIGHTENED ME..... I WANNA FASTER COMPLETE MY LAST TERM... I WANNA FASTER GET A DEGREE, THEN MASTER...I WANNA EARN MORE MONEY.....I WAN HER TO ENJOY LIFE... I WAN TO LIVE BY THE SEA WITH LOTS OF DOGS AROUND US ... WE WILL BE HAPPY EVERYDAY WITHOUT AND WORRIES...... BUT WHY????IS MONEY REALLY A SIN OR DEVIL???? Without money we cannot do many things.... but with money... pple tend to do more bad things...... sigh...My customer used to tell me... AS LONG AS YOU AND YR FAMILY(WIFE,GF,PARENTS) ARE HAPPY EVERYDAY... NO SUM OF MONEY CAN BUY THAT.. IF YOU ARE RICH .. YOU MAY NOT BE HAPPY EVERYDAY... it's TRUE...... i have some friends who are filthy rich.... their family have lots of problems, or they might have illness or more... Well done.. this world is full or sins, temptations... Humans tend to walk into traps of devils easily or maybe without even knowing it.... sigh.... omg.. i tend to speak more like a priest?teacher?LOL........

Alright jie... i am going to have a walk somewhere nearby.... kinda of bored -.- maybe i will find some notes in the library which will help for my projects... as for my eyes.. when i dropped the 1st drop into my eye.. it's burning my eyes... i dunno why.. maybe it's dirty.. but it's freaking PAIN PAIN....... >.< but now, i think it's better.... k k..... i go liao.. update later ^.^